Xinyi Haha we're both thinking the same thing. Damn embarrassing. Yeh we always walk home tgr, remember! Haha (: Yuann Yay Xiaoyuann is nice :) Graceyeoh Yeh she looks good right! Stupiak girl, I'll tell her tmr. Yeh I finish school at around 0130pm, go home change then I'll fly to DG to meet you (: Josh Yehyeh I remember :) Mm & the last phone call was last year! Recently la, not that long ago. Haha rightrightright? I remember :)
I probably shouldn't tell you but I dreamed of you last night.
The sooner you realize things will never be the same again, the sooner you can move on.
You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."
Conscientiousness:
You have low conscientiousness. Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously. Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions. Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have high neuroticism. It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed. You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully. You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.
You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious! You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you
Your negative traits:
You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruelly break their heart
Your ideal partner:
Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you. Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together. Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often
Your dating style:
High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur.
Your seduction style:
You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things Passionate. You really get into any intimate act. Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner.
Tips for the future:
Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed. Learn to love your partner for who they are - not how they help advance your life. Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog.
You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many.
Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.
I went to school for less than half an hour, maybe even less than twenty minutes, I walked out & hopped onto a cab. My head was pounding, as usual, it happens all the time. I couldn't take it. Went home, slept immediately after I got changed out of the blue uniform.
Talking about the blue uniform, 2007's the last year in SJC & the last year wearing the same uniform I've worn for the past 5 years. Mixed emotions. 5 years in the same uniform, of course you'd grow to like it no matter what & now that you can't wear it that often anymore, it's sad. Glad that I can finally stop wearing this & get off that High School' category.
Distance never separates two hearts that really care.
I just woke up two hours ago. I slept for like 6 hours today :D Very happy. But thanks to that fucked up bitch who sleeps beside my bed every night, she screwed up my mood. Thanks butthole. I hate it whenever I sleep & get interrupted. Hello missy with fucked-up-attitude-and-personality-ugly-eat-a-lot-fat-act-princess-like, the house has got more than enough television excluding the one in my room. You just have to be a friggin' pest & charge into the room, switch on the telly with the volume so damn loud. You just have to, y'know. It's as if like if you do not do that, you're gonna lose a part of yourself & would die the next fucking minute. I have enough okay. You're gonna get it from me the next time. You better watch it. Oh thanks for telling on me by the way, at the super accurate time when I just wake up from my dreams. _l_
A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.
I just finished dinner & just finished talking to Grace bout tmr (: Meeting her after school tmr to talk & shop & bitch & whatever, everything (: I'm gonna show y'all something.. Disgusting/Amazing? I don't know, depends on how you look at it. I find it amazing (:
That's Val's little babygirl in her womb (: She's smiling, can you see?
I don't wanna waste another moment of my life without you in it♥
I'm gonna do some online shopping & sleep more. School tmr, TGIF! & I haven't pack my bag yet. Grr.. I'm so wide awake now, y'know. Shats, I hope someone calls. Hahahaha. Goodnight!
Call me selfish call me what you like I think it's right To want someone for all your own And not to share their love
♥: She thought that she could buy happiness by the bottle
(7:32 PM) /
Stefthyname Haha it stained my fingers too okay. No choice la, it's the price we gotta pay (: Varron Haha sure (: Eh uhh what's your url uh? Thank you thank you :) Study hard for Ns! Teresa Yay! But I need to do more work ): Xinyi Omgomgomg yknow I knew this was coming but I didn't know what to do so I just didn't change or whatever. I'm friendly, honest! It's just that if I smile/wave to you, & you don't recognise me or don't wave back, I'd be damn embarrassed so I thought I should just don't smile or wave. To save myself from the embarrassment :D Graceyeoh Text me okay! I need to fill you in with lotsa details. [: Mm I'll be cutting on Saturday morning (: Not tmr. My mom !! Whatever, as long as I get to cut my hair. But cute right the quiz! :D April Yeh when I have the time to allright? I'm damn angry with your FT & I'm talking to you on MSN now (:
Is it a crime when you love someone so much that you can't see clearly?
There's nothing wrong with fairy tales. Everyone winds up 'happily ever after'.
Remember Avril's Girlfriend? The song that Celeste made a video out of? Here's the Chinese/Cheena version.
Damn retarded! There's more okay! Listen to all the versions here! The site is in Chinese by the way. :/
I slept at 11pm last night & I still felt so lethargic this morning. Fuck, what is this man?! :(
It's 1118pm now. I wanted to sleep so badly just now but in order to finish my work & sleep earlier tonight, I just have to get things done before sleeping. Damn it. Zel has been sleeping since 0630pm, after the 0530pm Channel 8 show 'til now. No dinner okay. I wonder what actually made her so tired & why school didn't give her any homework. Tsk.
I abhor that girl who walked in front of me while I was walking to school. Do not lift your head up so high, really, do not, I'm telling you. It's disgusting. Adding on to the fact that you completely do not have manners, you don't know how to say please & thank you. You obviously do not know how you look like facing a mirror. You should go look into a mirror, really. Look at the girl you see, does she scare you? She scares me.
There were quite a number of people alking that way this morning. I don't want any misunderstandings so, a hint to who she is: She's an upper-sec girl from SJC, period.
Mrs Ong will be back in school tmr, she wasn't in school today. But Mrs Lee was ): & there's SS ): ): PE was (blank). I don't know what word to use to describe it. We settled down in Lin laoshi's room, but Mr Sim walked past & asked us to go downstairs & stay with the class, that way is safer 'cos people who walk pass might think that we're skipping classes. We didn't wanna go down so we just action a little, show him that we went down. We ended up running back to the library, which is behind Lin laoshi's room. Haha stayed in there, talked & stuff. Sass & the rest came up to enjoy the air-con, after their PE lessons. SS - Fucking boring to the core.
Recess. They went to change in the toilet. And this is how Qiaos look like in her new hair :)
Oh my, I finally have got pictures to put up. Sorry for the lack of images!
She looks good, no? She does! Comment & say that she does, this is an order! Hahahaha. She's going into a depression 'cos of her hair. Hahahahaha [:
Ate during recess, like after so long uh. Chemistry, did practical & Lit was next. The quiz. I'm so dead la. I didn't read the text & I can't do the quiz at all. I need to hand it in by tmr. Gosh. After school, went to Miss Chia's room to rest. Talked, got drinks & all. Miss Chia came, went through our work & left school at around 4pm (:
This is funny, read on!
A man and his wife were getting a divorce at a local court, but the custody of their children posed a problem. The mother jumped to her feet and protested to the judge that since she had brought the children into this world, she should retain custody of them. The man also wanted custody of his children, so the judge asked for his side of the story.
After a long moment of silence, the man rose from his chair and replied: "Judge, when I put a dollar into a vending machine, and a Pepsi comes out, does the Pepsi belong to me or to the machine?"
He won the case, not kidding!
I have an eyecandy, actually. So. Damn. Cute. -faints She'd be my motivation to go to school. Eh but not that strong la. :/ Heh. Not strong enough.
I wanna be your last kiss for all time♥
I've decided. If I have nothing on tmr, I'm gonna sleep like how Zel did today. I dunch care. I want long long long long forever sleep. I need it, in fact. 15 minutes to 12am, to Thursday! Omg I'm gonna go sleep now. Goodnight! :D
P/s: Somehow everything I own smells of you..
If the world would fall apart In a fiction worthy wind I wouldn't change a thing Now that you're here.
♥: Am I just another scene from a movie that you've seen a hundred times?
(7:44 PM) /
Graceyeoh Hahaha. But if we do not? :P I'm gonna cut on Thursday, most probably la. Ugh I can't wait to get rid of my hair though I'd miss my old left-parting hair. Haha damn retarded I know. Welcome, the song nice right! Cynthia AWWWW! I love Cynthia too! :D Yay Elmo so cute right! :D Yuann OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS! I LOVE YOU XIAOYUANNNNNNNNNN! Yay come pick me up when you're free okay? You call me! I'm free on Mon, Thurs & Fri. Now I wanna hug you Xiaoyuannnnnnnnn. Hehehehe [:
Don't push me 'cause I'm close to the edge.
Once you get what you want, there is always something that you are going to lose.
Had art first thing in the morning. Was rather relieved (: Miss Teh's happy with my research, I need to get my final piece design done by Thursday. I'm almost done with the one I was drawing in class just now. I need more ideas man. ): Had English after that. Miss Chew went through the vocab we did in the book & all. I was like falling sleep luh. Miss Chew is damn slow. :/ SS after that & since Mrs Lee didn't come to school, it's a free period! :D That teacher who came in is damn annoying. He kept looking at our group, & he wanted to book us 'cos he said that we were making a lot of noise. We're not the only one, the whole class is talking, playing & all. Don't know what is his problem la. Recess. Was. So. Omg. Fucking. Funny. Jennifer (censored!) Lau-Liang-Jacksun & Jen Micheal Yip-Lau-Jacksun (censored!)
Headfuck, handfuck, legfuck, pancakes with blueberry on top, pancakes with peanut on top. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 'All the way to my hips!' Omgomgomg I'm like laughing at whatever we said & talked about during recess. I cannot stop fucking thinking. Wtf, damn hilarious. It's an inside joke, I'm sorry readers, I can't reveal! That is to protect the identities of the people involved. I'm like an idiot laughing, omg.
We were all so tired & drained after that. So fucking restless in Bio! Plus, the night before, I barely slept for a few hours. Damn tired. CME made it worse, though we were still laughing. :/ It was damn fucking fucking fucking boring. It was such a bore, I swear. Omgosh I was really falling asleep but Mdm Sharidah was walking around our table so I couldn't sleep in peace ):
Assembly. Sat with the rest = sitting alone ): Shyan still said she won't leave me alone! Nevermind, but I was a little emo. Had a lot of thoughts racing through my head. I guess what I was thinking is a little immature but I kept telling myself that I shouldn't be so sensitive. Ugh I really hate to lie to myself but that's the only way to make myself feel better. Gahgahgah.
Lunch, ate & did art. Printed Sarah's stuff in the lab, back down to the art room to get my documents & went back up to the lab with Jaclyn to get my things printed. Went down, all of us left after that. Sass & I took a bus to Compass, with Jaclyn & Rachael H (: They went home while we went to walk around to waste some time. Bought sweets for everyone (: Went to look at laptops. Sass had been eying on the laptop that I have & it's the one that I'm using now. Haha she thought that my laptop very LKK(lau kok kok). HAHAHAHAHAHA. Saw hubby Xiu Wenny at Popular, saw Shan & Nette as well (: Nette screamed so loudly when I stand next to her. She didn't know it was me! Hahah. Accompanied Wenny 'til Eilis came, then we went off to get Famous Amos & went to look at phones. [: Sass took a train to look for Yj while I went home.
The weather is fucking hot. It's affecting my mood. Especially in school. If the air-conditioner isn't on, I'll be feeling damn fucked up.
♣ Monday, March 26, 2007 ♣
♥: If this isn't love, this is the closest I've ever been
(11:49 PM) /
Graceyeoh I've sent it over to your mail, check it out yeh. Maybe it's in the Junk Mail. It's from YouSendIt :) So fucking true. That made me realised that I didn't exactly love/like her 'cos whenever she tell me things about her her, no hurt, no pain was involved. So ta da (: I know you're confused Grace. Hahaha. Short. Like Celeste? I feel like killing you, you know. I was just telling Qiaos I've decided to snap my hair 'cos Grace said that if I didn't like my new hair, I can clip it up. I find that really true so I should cut right? Yes way, Glynis is gonna look ugly like everyone else is in the clique 'cos everyone just did something to their hair ^^ AND NOW! Omg Grace!! >:@ You confused me. Cut or not cut. Yuann Your wish?! Haha really?! Awww I know you feel for me Xiaoyuann. :P I want a picture with you Xiaoyuann. So when are you gonna pick me up from school? HAHAHAHAHA! April Across Five Aprils is good not because April is part of the band name for sure. (pause) Okay I'm kidding dearie :) Oh shats I forget to ask Qiaos today. Ugh dangdangdang I'll ask her tmr. I'm gonna it for sure. :D Heh. Eh April there is absolutely no telepathy between us. Damn it. Joey Hahaha same dp :) Jasminek Omg I finally see you commenting man. Where you die to huh! Replied in your Haloscan. (:
One little thing you did that makes me wanna spend the rest of my life with you.
Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return.
The picture is a little over-stretched, sorry! I couldn't find a better one. I really like the above one a lotta! Sass is addicted to they two :D
♣ Saturday, March 24, 2007 ♣
♥: This love isn't good unless it's me & you
(4:47 PM) /
Teresa Haha really? But I'm afraid I wouldn't look good in them yknow! Haha okay! I'm fine, how's you? (: Talk soon k! Lovelove! Shuhui No la, I think only you, Phyllis, Mx & Grace! Idk anyone else from BP. :) April I want I want! I forget how much is it :/ I wanna cut my hair luh. I need a new hairstyle. Graceyeoh But not everyone look good in it babes. I can't decide. I've been considering since Jan this year, I ought to be shot. ]: How Grace, how? I haven't done anything to my hair, other than colouring from brown to black, in 6 months which s half a year. Howhowhow ): I'm gonna send the email tonight if I have the time 'cos my dearest daddy found out that I've been using the laptop 2 hours before the arrival of sunrise. Fuck it. And now, today, I have to get whatever I have to do with the laptop done by 10pm & I'm left with less than an hour. Grrr.. Joey Hello sweetie pie, I'm talking to you in MSN now with almost-similar display picture (:
On days like this, I can sit & stare at nothing, see you in everything.
Sometimes the people we love, just forget to love us back.
Current track: Across Five Aprils - A Year From Now. Fucking sad song. Click here for the lyrics.
It's Sunday & tmr? It's a Monday. Fuck ):
Joey & I :) Check out the display picture! Haha it's almost the same huh.
Last night, at 3am, I was watching videos on YouTube & guess what? Dad came in! I didn't know he was around, I swear. He allows me to use the laptop but he doesn't know that I uses it until wee hours, until time when I was supposed to be sleeping & not typing away! Grr & today I gotta log off at 10pm no matter what.
When it hurts, you know it's Love.
Saturday was plain boring. I slept 'til 12plus, did my work & went for dinner in the evening with the whole family. I was so fucking quiet. I barely spoke less than 20 sentences. Today, same. Fucking boring as well but was rather productive. I sketched a little for art & took pictures (: Didn't managed to make Jermaine cry ): I need shots of that though. Ugh nevermind, I'll go look for Pearlyn & Natalyn tmr :D
Saturday (:
Today (: The sunset, so beautiful (:
I don't know why am I so into such things now but yeh, they are the beautiful things in life that we, being too caught up with our own life, never be bothered to realise that they are around us & they make this world whole.
Well here's the point. I'm not particularly concerned with whether or not you like me because I live to like you & sadly, I can't like you anymore. So when you're feeling real low & dirty, don't look to me to pump you back up 'cos perhaps for the first time in your life, I won't be there. Thank you for the countless shits & goodbye. (:
Blockquoting is so fun. I like what I have up in there today. I finally know what's the meaning of Fei Ni Mo Shu. [: Such a lovely song. Lovey-dovey.
In you is everything that I'm missing.
School tmr. 10pm is just 13 minutes away. Ugh.
Monday: School, home, art. Tuesday: School, art, home. Wednesday: School, Chinese remedial, home, art. Thursday & Friday: School, home. Saturday: Movie, dinner. Sunday: Gathering. (You can see, art fill me up everyday. Almost.)
Thursday & Friday are the only two days that I can rest. I've got no plans yet but I might be meeting Nat. I lovelovelove that girl to the max [: I need to fucking blog in Xanga 'cos I have all sorts of private emotions. Fuck it. Goodnight my loves.
Nothing's like how it used to be. I wish I could turn back time. Impossible as it may seem, I wish i could, so bad. Baby, quit playing games with my heart.
♥: There's nothing I'd rather do than spend the rest of my life loving you
(12:28 AM) /
Lingli More soon,more soon! I'd have stayed a little longer if I didn't have school the next day. I'll talk to you again ok? Take care! Lovelove (: Yifang Haha it's okay! :D Graceyeoh Yeh I will, soon! I know I keep saying that but I cant find the time to dig out everything to say to you. I do know that side of you Grace. I've seen it through you. Hahahahahahaha :D Nicole Thanks! :D Yuann Don't make me fall for you Xiaoyuannnnnnnnnnn. Haha I saw you in Vivian's dp! Yehyehyeh miss you berry muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Shuhui I'm popular in BP?! Since when! Hahaha which girl like me? Haha wah I like you man. Damn honest. I know I'm very well-liked :D HAHAHAHAHA skin thick ah this one. :P
I'll blame myself for holding on to the hope of keeping you by my side.
Sometimes we find ourselves walking through our lives blindfolded, & we try to deny that we're the ones who securely tied the knot.
Friday has left & now it's good 27 minutes into Saturday (: Hello weekends, I hope you're gonna be good one, better one than the last.
I've got nothing much to blog about actually. School was allright, we're all worn out & tired. Everyone's yawning, heads are rested on the desk & all. First period was English & we got hell from Miss Chew. She's finally back from her one-month break by the way. She slimmed down so much, we were all shocked. The class cheered when we saw her earlier this week. [: Anyway, so I was saying we got hell from her because due to the MOE symposium, she changed her seating plans & it's all messed up. To teach better, she asked us all to fill up the spaces in front but no one moved. So she called names, asking people to move, the class weren't happy & all luh. She started shouting, that made Trish blow up at her but she tried controlling. :/ After that was Chem, which was pretty okay. We did energy reaction, if I didn't remember wrongly. Both exothermic & endothermic [: ! I remember. Hahaha.
Maths, transformation test. Fuck pissed with myself for leaving the calculator at home. I get so worked up with myself easily of recent, sigh. I'm gonna fail the test for sure. The next period was PE but Mrs Wong isn't in school so we got permission from Mrs Ong to stay at the back of her class to do our work while she teaches 4A (: It's nice watching her teach though. I realised the way she teaches us & the way she teaches them is totally different. Shijing & Cecilia was with me & they agreed with me as well. Left the class quietly, & went for Chinese. Had listening compre.
Went for recess. The frikkin' tables are fucking insufficient to squeeze so many fucking people in luh okay ugh! We have to chop place. Hahaha. CD then Maths after recess, but Mrs Ong weren't in so we did our work. Qiaos & I were trying out the probability question & when I was using the calculator with her looking at what I'm doing, the answer shown on the calculator screen was the right answer & we immediately went yay! very loudly & had a ^10 :D I know I know, Maths drove us mad. This is the Maths craze. Had extra time, so Qiaos & I slept for awhile. Talked & all, gathered around with Bestaye & Sass to talk. Shyan went for lunch with Jaclyn earlier at 1pm for AC rehearsal. [:
After school, Sass met Yj outside school. All of us, excluding Qiaos who went home, took 119 to Compass. Accompanied Bestaye to wait for Monique's arrival & went home (: Showered, went online, Mom came home & went out for lunch together. She almost made me cry in the public. Godpa's gonna have a heart transplant & it's a very serious & big operation. If it fails, he's gone. And if that happens, I'm gonna regret my whole life for not doing the job of a goddaughter should do. I don't know, the thought of it haunts me now. I'm so fucking terrified. I need comfort. Godpa's hands are tied up because he tried to commit suicide by removing the tube that helps him to breathe. Once it's pulled out, he'd die. I guess he must be suffering very badly ): Sigh I hope everything would go well.
Let's end this off with something meaningful. To me, at least.
Have you ever look at a picture of yourself & see a stranger in the background? It makes you or rather, I wonder how many strangers have pictures of me, how many moments of other people's lives I've been in. Was I a part of a stranger's life when their dream came true, or was I there when their dreams died? Did I keep trying to get in as if we were destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think about it, you could be a big part of someone else's life & not even know it.
I could've been a part of your life without you knowing, my dear (:
Bring me for a haircut & a shopping spree please someone ):
I don't believe anybody feels the way I do about you now♥
Oh! Kwai, was it you that I saw with your mom?! Omgosh I miss seeing you around (: & I saw Shawn who reminded me of Zaeron during lunch with his bunch of friends. Mom knows him too :D Haha tired tired tired sleepy sleepy sleepy restless restless restless though I slept for around 2 hours before dinner which is at 8 plus. Ugh I need more sleep now. Oh wait but before I do, answer this: D'yall think I would look better in bangs? In the Haloscan please, thank you!
Goodnight lovelies. No homies or hornies.
I wanna lay forever with you in the sunshine. Kinda like the stars above do with the moonlight. You can pretend all you want to. But the truth is, Darling I love you :)
♥: I'm leaving holes in the wall & holes in my heart
(12:59 AM) /
Mx You know why Guinness! Because you pronounced my name longly! It's glare-niece (: & not glee-niece! Thanks love, your comments always make me smile yknow :D Haha nevermind, must comment okay! Cannot be lazy you! Wah got beautiful. I know you're obsessed with me la k. :P Haha really? If it does then I shall smile more :) :) :) I love you too Mxxxxxxxx! I know you mean it silly cow. I can't enter your blog! Josh Lovelove back! Camii Yay ! I love Camii :D Graceyeoh Actually.. I love it too :) It would be even better if all of us can hang out tgr anytime, stay near to each other & all. I love you too Grace (: You know that I always do & I have a lot to tell you ugh. Daphne If I am free. So means if I'm not, it doesn't matter right? :) Haha okay I'll try allright? Who are you by the way? Michelle Yeh sure! :D Yifang Haha welcome! Yeh I'd appreciate it if you lemme know beforehand yeh? :) Love! Shuhui Wah third one from BPGH. Hahaha (: You know why? That is called kaypoh. But whatever, I don't care what they know as long as it isn't something that isn't true, I'm okay with it. I'm well-liked, what to do ! Sigh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA April Yeh your mom is the bomb babe. Tsk she took away our chitty chatty time la! ): Nevermind, I'll blog in my Xanga if I've got anything t tell you so you better lookout okay (: Love you April!
The stars sing songs that only lovers hear.
Sometimes, the feeling you start to have is the one you never stopped having.
Current earworm: Nelly Furtado - Give It To Me (ft. Timbaland) ♥
Time check: 12.14am I just finished my essay about an hour ago. I'm gonna update & off to sleep, fucking hella tired.
I was on the phone with Xav 'til about 3am. Bighug, I hope you're feeling better after yesterday's talk(it's more to bickering though haha) with your guardian angel, me. :D I hope things would go well for you. I'm here, & you know that, I'm sure. I promise you I'd go over & accompany you when you & I both have the time okay? Luff chew♥ Hung up & slept. I was thinking if I can't wake up later in the morning, I'll skip school but who knows dad came to shake me. -.- & I woke up. Ugh first period was Art. Fucking fucked up. Miss Teh wants to change everything & everything & everything. Which means I've gotta redo & I'm the slowest in class, along with Sharon Tan the 5B (out liao le!) CampusSuperstar. We did unseen prose devices during Lit. Mrs Tan is really funny. With Serene & Kelly, it's even funnier. Mrs Tan wanted to rush out of her room before we packed up & Serene just say her la & she's like 'Okay ready not? See who go out first ah! Get set, chiong!' Haha damn funny la she.
A promise you can't keep: Forever
Recess & had Maths after that (: Probability kills. Fuck man I get no shit about it. I need a fucking tutor. Tsk. Did a compo during Chinese, My Ideal School. Nice title, very easy to write :D Maths again & we did histogram. Another fucked up chapter! So agitated, I swear. Frequency density, lower boundary, upper boundary, interval. I don't know. Fuck this. I was just telling Zel to appreciate school now 'cos when she comes to my stage, she'll regret. GAH! Took a bus with Shijing & Janet. Accompanied Shijing at her bus stop 'til her bus came & went home (:
I slept for two hours just now 'til around 8pm. Damn happy. But I'm still tired. Ugh fuck.
Serene Chew looks like Ah Seng, Mr Mark Chan & Mr Bean! :D Hahaha damn poor thing.
Someone made an announcement over the PA system & asked for Mr Mark Chan. The whole row, 5 of us turned over & looked at Serene. She gave that look & went 'Sorry Mrs Ong, I gotta go.' Mrs Ong was also laughing at her, being called Mark-Chan-lookalike :D
But how many heartaches must I stand before I find a l♥ve?
I'm talking to Ling Li now & I'm so happy (: Eleven years of friendship with her! Along with Peizi, Sihui, Wenna, Miaoxin. Omg I miss them all so much! ): Longest one is Phoebe Ong who is fucking studying in SAJC (!!!). Mm thirteen years! I knew her since K1. Even both my parents + grandma remembers her til now! I know she've got a favourite jacket then & it was pink (: We were separated 'cos her parents registered her in Ai Tong & Marymount while my parents registered me in both Townsville & St Nicks. So we went on our separate ways ever since then. I always remembered her as the girl who likes to sit next to Dickson [: Dickson then was fucking tall for a K1 kid. Overgrown ah. I remember there's this girl who's called Evelyn who offered me her cube cheese which I rejected & she insisted on giving it to me so I took it. The next minute, she walked over to daddy, without me knowing of course & told him that I took her cheese. I would never forget okay. I got scolded for nothing!
Anyway I'm going to go sleep now. I've got a lot to talk about my younger days so you can ask me if you wanna know more okay (: Goodnight homies!
You seemed like such a big part Of my life and my heart But the truth is I've found something new And she easily towers over you
♥: 'Happily ever after' fails & we're poisoned by these fairytales
(11:52 PM) /
Yuann Heh I miss you already Xiaoyuannnnnnnnnnnnn :D Heh am I gonna see 67****** on my phone screen soon?! Michelle Haha not you luh (: Which? April No chill pill sweetie. ): I've got things that I wanna tell you. Very fucking badly. I just need to get them out of my chest right now. Ugh Shuhui Yeh how sickening right! Haha but whatever luh. Now we don't talk anymore. Just smile smile & all. Haha (:
I'm stuck with a smile that doesn't fit me anymore.
Sass liked the other picture I put up but I think she'll like this one better (: Right Sassy?
School is so fucking tiring today. Morning we watched some video. It was a musical back in the '70s about Jesus. The guy who came out first to sing was really funny. His voice is.. awful but powerful. the guy who acted as Jesus in the show looks like a girl! Omg damn funny la. I wanted to sleep so I tried all sorts of position to make myself feel comfortable. Well, NONE WAS, unfortunately. 9am, PE Mrs Wong didn't come to school so Cecilia, Shijing & I went to Lin laoshi's homeroom to kill time. Shijing did her work, Cecilia & I just rest & talk. SS after that, which was perfectly fine. Mrs Lee went off in the midst of the lesson 'cos she have got something to attend to. When the bell rang, it was time for recess & everyone in the class dashed off to get changed outta the PE attire, into the pinafore.
Your love will be the death of me.
Recess was really fun. We were bitching about the three musketeers in class & it was hella funny! Went for Chem. Had practical & the moment that I've awaited has finally arrived. 1pm, I'm dismissed from school!! :D All 5 of us, Sass, Bestaye, Qiaos, Shyan & I went for lunch together at Compass. Cabbed to Compass & headed to Pizza Hut! It's like school's canteen. We keep seeing SJC girls walking in, group by group, one by one. We stayed 'til around 0230pm & went home (:
I think I've got the sweetest bestest friend alive.
Yip Qiao Lin :) One who knows me the best. Even if nothing was said, she knows what is going through my head. She treated us all to lunch today & made us all happy & high. She's the sweetest maaaan. Love her to the maximum. Thanks for the lunch & the time y'all :) L♥vel♥ve.
Showered, did my art, sketched a little. Fucking fucked up now, I got no fucking mood.
Oh, you. Get your fucking facts right before you start pouring your angst thoughts & emotions to others. Maybe that's why we're loggerheads. Because of your personality & your character. Plus your attitude. Thank you & please, mind your words. Mind who are you talking to 'cos the one that you've just scolded is the innocent one.
April lost the battle to her mom 'cos of her results. She have to give up the com & now she'd be going MIA once again. Grace MIA-ed from MSN quite some time already. Phyllis is finally back, her com managed to survive. Mainey's gonna get busy already because school is starting &..... :) Happy for her. Cel is forever busy la huh. Sigh. I'm alone again lor backside.
I've loved you all along & I forgive you for being away for far too long. Maybe I'm the only one who knows why this is up here & why I played this song over & over again on my player.
Thank you Phyllis, thank you April (: I love you both!
My heartbeat stops each time you leave me hanging.
L♥ is going to start studying & she asked me to study as well. Yeh I should. I would okay, as I have promised :) I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight homies!
Your heart starts skipping steps So you're further gone than you might expect And if your thoughts should turn to death Got to stomp them out, like a cigarette.
♥: If you chose to walk away, I'd still be right here waiting
(10:53 PM) /
April Study hard for midyears allright! :D do the quiz do the quiz! (: Bobby Hahah yooooohoooooooooooooo back! :) Amanda Haha our uniform date! Whenwhenwhen! :D We must hang out soon k, go ask Lyd when she has the time then we can go out. No problem babes :) I love you too darhL! Graceyeoh Yessss but it doesn't work in IE, only in MF. School ends at 1pm for me tmr! Shuhui I guess so? She keep telling others that I'm very cute. Ewwww I was so disgusted.
Love's a train wreck, you're a mistake.
Happy nineteenth month to Sass & Yj :) Happy eighteenth month to Nette!
I'm so tired you know. I'm watching the 9pm show now & since 8pm, I've been wanting to sleep but I wanna watch this 9pm show so I tahan. Hahaha
Omg An Long's wife so poor thing ):
CHIJ SJC won the N.E.mation! :D Click here! Mom told me about it the other day & I took snapshots of the article. It's in Chinese though. I'll take photos of he one in English when I have the chance. Maybe tmr (:
Miss Teh's smiling so widely. Haha. She wasn't like that this morning. When we saw Mrs Tan walking away from Miss Teh, leaving her standing there alone like an idiot, we kinda knew that she weren't in a good mood. She came & started shouting. :/ Art for two periods was okay. I just continued doing my work while the rest go to her & talked to her about their moulting boards. I'm scared luh. I really wanna show her so at least I know what I need to improve on & all ): But my three boards isn't done & all. So I didn't show her. Tsk. English was boring. Argumentative essay by Friday.
I'll go on searching for moments full of you.
OMGOMGOMG Joanne Peh is damn poor thing. Damn poor thing ): Kelvin who is Xiao Xin in Holland V is a jerk, fucking fucking jerk. But I think he's quite good-looking. Hahaha.
K anyway SS was next & yeh Mrs Lee is going very fast like a train & I can't catch. She keep looking towards my direction or she'll ask if I'm ready, if I understand & all that. I always get a shock whenever I hear my name. Hahah. Recess, then it was Bio. Asexual & sexual reproduction. Bloody stupid. There's a test on Monday about drugs & hormones. Chinese was damn funny. Sharon sang for us. :D We sabotaged her! Haha she went for the superstar audition so we kept asking her to sing. She sang one line & stopped. Damn funny, I wanted to record but ugh didn't managed to. So sad ): If not y'all can hear her voice. :p CME was about marriage, boring. After that, we stayed in Mrs Ong's homeroom to clean up 'cos of tmr's MOE symposium. School ends at 1pm tmr! :D Thanks to the MOE symposium. Haha after school, went for Art. Stayed 'til about 4plus & went home. Miss Teh weren't around :D
I was too tired yesterday so I didn't blog. I was doing my art all the way 'til about 1am since the time I came back around.. say 0245pm? Yeh hella tired I swear.
Sometimes, pain becomes such a big part of your life that you expect it to be there all the time, plain because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't painful at all. But one day you feel something else. Something that feels wrong only because it's so unfamiliar. And in that moment, you realize you're happy.
Agree? :) I do.
Zel is sleeping already. It's raining cats & dogs, monkeys & donkeys. I'm gonna sleep soon. I wanna be a happy girl tmr, 'cos school ends early tmr though it starts as 0730am instead of the usual 0830am.
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I haven't pack my bag yet, fuck. I have to rush & pack tmr then, I guess. Fuck, Godpa was back into the normal unit some time ago but this afternoon, he was sent back into ICU. I'm scared & so upset about it.
Why should I be sorry for all of your mistakes?
GAH I HATE YOU. >:( I'm a very sad girl now. I'm gonna go rest already. Goodnight. Fuck my eye is swollen.
Maybe the stars that fill your eyes Are the stars that have been Leading me my whole life Just to end up with you.
♥: I'll sing you every song I know if it will make you stay
(2:29 AM) /
Graceyeoh It's okay babe. We'll arrange another day allright (: Yeh I got that song in my laptop. Very nice! Mm I think the first part of the answer don't make sense. Very nonsense :/ A very stupid start. Anyway your comment's format look like a love note :D Michelle Thanks a lot love (: Tty soon! April I guess not, I hope not. But I've got a little taste of it. Mmmmm yummy. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA :D Shuhui My juniors then were so.. small & petite, very shy & all. But there's one that really scare me. Omg she stalked me at school & all. Before I knew her, she already know my name, my class & stuff. When she see me, she screams hi, she don't say okay. Damn scary! Yuann Xiaoyuannnnnnnnnnnn :) Xiaoyuannnnnnnn! Xiaoyuannnnnnn :D Heh I love you! Thanks for calling me up that day. You make me happpppppy :) Prunella Aiyo babes, call me the next time you need to talk okay? Bighug! Nicole You bad bad bad bad girl. Don;t like you don't like you don't like you! Joey I know why you're happy. Because the drop dead gorgeous one just hugged you cyberly. :) RIGHTRIGHTRIGHT?!
I will be your one regret if I stay in your past.
One week of holiday(actually it wasn't even a holiday for me, I had school 3 days out of 5 days in the week so it's like a normal school week with 2 off days) is coming to an end in a few more hours' time. I seriously dread school. I feel like giving school a miss so I can stay home & roll the whole day.
No no no NO. I musn't do that. I musn't make skipping school a habit. I musn't escape. I don't wanna be a escapist. I'm going to be a good girl. Yeh, I'm going to school tmr. -sulk ):
Wait, going back to school means I have to start mugging 'cos mid years are coming + end of May would be Chinese Os. Congrats Glynis. You barely studied Maths & Chem in the two pathetic off days you had last week. Which, in other words, means I, Glynis Tan, lady of 17, have actually wasted a week on idling. Thank you. Now, I'm dead. I need to mug like fuck once it hits tmr. Grr..
I was home alone on Thursday so I decided to clean up my room since my maid was at Godma's place & all. So I made my bed, kept the laptop, the tables, the cups I used, ate my medicine& all. I took a photo of my bedroom to show y'all :)
Nice right? So neat. [:
Xiaoyuann called last evening. She managed to make me laugh like an eeediot & yay thanks to her, if not I'd have been pulling a face all day. I love Xiaoyuann♥:D
Dinner was crap. They talked about Keith being a hardcore gay & Godma Dora being the heartless one. I don't know. I feel like stepping in to say something but I know I'm not in the position to, neither am I to say whatever I want to say. In order not to blow it up further, I should just step back & watch like a kid watching both her parents fight & yet can't do anything to stop. I'm scared. I just wish Keith didn't screamed at Godma Susan so things would be fine & good like before. How can they quarrel like this in front of a dying man, lying in the hospital bed? Shouldn't they make peace, so that the dying old man could at least go in peace? Godpa tried to commit suicide by removing his oxygen mask. He told Auntie Jo that he'd let everything go now, end all his sufferings so he would feel better. It's making me cry all the time when I think of him. Mom wants me to visit him but Dad don't allow. ): I'm afraid yknow..
Stayed in today. Went to develop photos with Zel in the evening. The auntie asked us to return about an hour later so we went to walk around. Ate at Mos. I spent about like 3o bucks in an hour, omgosh.
I'm lazy to do captions &there's nothing to write in the captions anyway.
Some charity show is showing now & I find it really pointless. The number of calls are going really slowly. I was just telling Dad that people know about TT Durai's doing, who would still wanna donate? Dad stopped his monthly donation to NKF through Giro ever since the news about TT Durai started spreading. I requested NKF to stop sending me those envelopes. We were disappointed upon hearing the news. We thought we could trust him but who knows? Maybe we should be like uncle. He donates to the hospital located near Boon Keng station. At least they don't go around having charity shows, asking people to donate money. :/
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Personality: You are a very understanding person. You listen to people when no one else will, and this makes people love you. You are passionate, loving, and care - free. One of your main goals in life is to just be happy, and to love. You speak your mind, and you rarely lie. You are probably one of the most honest people there is. However this isn't always a good thing. Being truthful is a good thing, but there are times where you should draw the line. The truth hurts, yet you can't exactly grasp that fact. You believe it's always good to tell the truth. What you don't know is that telling a little white lie once in a while isn't all that bad. You can also cause a lot of drama. Not always on purpose, but you do end up doing it. You create this drama, and you don't always realize the people you're hurting when you're doing this. Open your eyes and you'll see this. Otherwise, you are a wonderful person to be around, and you are full of life, laughter, and most importantly, love.
- Color: Red Stone: Ruby Power: Love Element: Air Animal: A non flying bird, like a penguin! Quote: Love is like a sentence; it can end in so many different ways. :) Take this quiz!
Took this from Grace :)
1. YOUR REAL NAME - Glynis Tan
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first three letters of your name, plus izzle) - Glyizzleis
3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME:(first initial of first name, first three of your last) - Gan
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME:(fav color and fav animal) - Red penguin
5.YOUR DRUNK NAME(FIRST 3 LETTERS OF YOUR FIRST NAME, then slam your hand on the keyboard) - Glyrjwio WTF LMAO
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom's name) - Tanglevo
8. IRAQI NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 3rd letter of your moms maiden name, letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms middle name) - Lngagh it doesn’t make sense dude.
9. ACT CUTE NAME:( write your fav animal and erase the last letter of it and plus a yoki behind) - Penguiyoki
10. SMELLY NAME:(write ur fav colour and plus a TOIL infront of it) - Toilred.
Take the quiz if you wanna do it yes. (: I'm having weird people on Friendster. I don't even know her & she wants to view my private photos. I'm sorry my dear, that's why it's called private :)
In my nothing, you meant everything to me♥
The thought of waking up at 0645am tmr is.. :( :( :( I'm gonna turn in really early today. I wanna be happy(well, sleeping more makes me look happy) & hyper & attentive at school tmr. I can go back home & sulk all I want. Oh, I need to rush back home immediately after school tmr to rush art. I have to, I must. I must at least get 2 moulting boards done.
I have so much to say. I'm gonna go into my private blog to rant. Ask me for the url if you wanna read. Goodnight babies. Have fun in school tmr, tell me about it when y'all get back (:
I can hold out much longer than you. When it's steady, I'm just acting out my roles. When you're ready, I'll be walking out that door. And don't call me pretty baby anymore.
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Glynis, lived through seventeen years of love, joy & hardship.
She’s taking her GCE O’levels October this year, currently in preparation for this major exam that could change her life.
She is head over heels in love with Jvern Ng since 290507♥
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