Cherine Thanks a lot Cherine (: You words really helped a lot I swear! I love you!
Graceyeoh Blockquote, honey. <>TYPE WHATEVER YOU WANT HERE< /blockquote > Without the spaces, of course. (: You can go to your templete & come up with your own blockquote design. I'll give you the quotes if you want k. Thanks hons, I love you lotza! AND BTW GRACE, THANKS FOR THE PAIRING US UP. AM I THATTTTTT SPASTIK? (Say no!)
Ann Haha next time just come up to me & say hi okay? (: You're looking more & more like your sister! Haha hope to see you both soon allright? Study hard girl! Yeap I will, thanks :)
April Yeh time to hide them in somewhere dark. Eh you want the online one or the real one? I want the real one yknow but my cousin told me never to touch those things so I didn't :/ He even got his dad to warn me, gosh so scary.
Michelle Haha yeap (: Take care, I'll see you on Thursday! Lovelove.
Brenda Hello brenda (: You take care too!
Michellelau Haha thanks Michelle (: (: (:
Mx Omg Mingxian, you are so hyper & high, it makes me feel like going high with you but I am drained from all the :( that I have in me, I'm left with no energy to high. I wish I could, really. I like seeing your name on my Haloscan, your comments never fail to make me smile (: Eh let's go for the tarot reading together!! Spellbound where? Far East? Yeh when?!! How's your school schedule like? Mingxian wo ai ni! :D
Phyllis Thanks Phyllis. I gave up talking to you on MSN. You always don't reply me! >:(

I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet.
And it'd never be me.



"Do you need help?"
"Don't we all?"

I really like Mrs Lee's reading today (:

Happy seventeenth Grace♥
Happy forty-forth Mummy♥
May all your wishes & dreams come true! I love you Gracie, I hope you enjoyed your birthday! Something for you reeeeeeal soon ok? *hugs* I love you Mummy, I hope you liked the surprise I gave you :) *kisses*

I'll miss our yesterdays.

I was surprised to see so many comments today. Usually it'd one or two then it'd slowly increase but when I got home, there's about six or eight. Wahhhh feel so loved (:



Had English paper today. Was okay, I guess. I hope I'd do well this time. Both papers ended at around noon. Went to get my Maths TYS & went down to the canteen to wait for Siwing. Was texting J while waiting for her (: Siwing was done with her stuff so was Jamie & we went to take 88 together. The bus was filled with ah bengz reek of sweat, sweat, perspiration & more perspiration. They sat next to Siwing, that's the worse thing ever. I was next to Siwing. OHGAWDDDDDD. I was about to throw up last night's dinner on the bus if we didn't got off on time, I swear. :/ Jamie is damn cute by the way. I think, I used to dislike her. Hahahah, I think so, I can't remember. That's the thing in girls' school, you hate the sight of one person & sometimes you can't remember why.

Alighted at J8 & we went on our separate ways. Mom was rushing me so I left first. Went to meet mom at Aunt's saloon. Trimmed my long fringe 'cos it was irritating my eyes really badly. I've got sensitive eyes luh :/ So yeh trimmed it today & I look so tootzzz. Ugh. Ate a little & couldn't take it anymore. Had gastric ): Took a train to YCK & cabbed home. Mummy offered to! Haha 'cos she was tired. Went home, showered, online. I was fucking upset over some issue. Blogged in Xanga. Dad came home & we all went for dinner t Aunt's place.

Everyone was there (: Aunt Helen, Uncle Allan, Embrys! He's back from Adelaide for a shortttt break (: He told me I slimmed down a lot & I think he changed quite a bit. Godma, Allan, Valerie, Sally & Jason was there too. Dinner. I ate super little. Gastric ): Damn pain luh. Watched Shark Attack! Haha quite nice though scary & thrilling. Val was watching next to me & Allan was disturbing her. They two make a damn cute couple luh I swear. 8plus, Allan kept asking me to bring the cake out & I did. Was in the kitchen, preparing & all (: Mum was quite shocked but the suddenly blackout(Rhys went to switch off the lights) gave her a tiny winy little hint.


Rhys can't wait to eat. Hahahaha!

Dry iceeeeee! :D


Pearlyn, so greedy!

The moon, can't really see.
Me in the reflection, can see? Hahahaha. Look at Daddy.

Can you see the dry ice! Haha so cool right? Thanks to Allan Ang :D He & his weird stupid ideas. He asked Zel to walk behind me with the cup of dry ice on her hands, ask her to keep blowing & make me feel like some deity coming to Earth -.- Nonsense. Mummy is happy, I hope. She seems to be. (:

Went home, got on the laptop & all. Webcammed with J & now we are talking. She have to switch off her lights so we stopped webcaming (: We're on a super funny topic now so yeh. Haha damn funny. J is damn cute pleaze.

I'm sorry that you don't call me anymore,
& I'm sorry that we don't talk & laugh like before.

At first when I saw this, I thought to myself, 'I'll never be such plight but I empathise whoever is in this plight right now.' Whispered a silent prayer for whoever is in that plight & smiled to myself. But now I need those little prayers I said for them. :/

If you get what I mean.

Ahhhhhhh, life is like a rollercoaster. My mood was like a rollercoaster today. A mega one. Thanks to who uhh? WHO?!! Hahah shan't mention la hor. She herself know can already. (The problem here is, she doesn't even know that it's her so let's forget about it)

Cause I know in my heart I'd never let you tumble to the ground.
Gonna go sleep now (: Goodnight everyone. It's errr 0228am now & Dad saw me on the laptop. I am so dead tomorrow. I better not wake up in the afternoon. I better wake up early to study. Hmm I love you hons, even though you made me really sad today. Remember what you said okay! You said you (quote!!)"will love me more" :D Heh right? Your cyber hugs made my gastric better! Heh goodnight, I shall go reply your text now. Goodnighty everyone! xD

P/s: I've more pictures, come back tomorrow! :D

Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far, just hold on
There is nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours.

Labels: haircut, monday, mummy's birthday, photos

Graceyeoh Yeh greaaaat (: Haha I love my maid though sometimes she really piss me off whenever she keep my stuff without asking me. Grr.. Anyway, yeh I wanted to make you something but I've got no time to make & send it by postage to you. It's tomorrow :( Freeaaaakkkkk ughhh!
Raine Oh err www.junkfood.com? Or you can try going down to Bugis Street. There is plentiful in there (:
Puayleng No problem hons (:
Jiayi I miss you too twin (: We need to talk soon :D

I can no longer apologize for your former lover's mistakes.



Behind every beautiful thing there is some kind of pain.

I'm supposed to be happy but I'm not feeling it at all. I'm feeling more of fear, more of upset than what I'm supposed to feel. I know there is something between us & I know we both aren't ready to go into it yet. So let's wait 'til the day comes. Don't worry hons, I'll wait, I'll still be here (:

Actually I have a lot to tell you but I don't know how to start, where to start, & I don't know how to get you into the mood. We're always talking in that laughing, teasing, joking kind of way, never been able to get to talk about something serious. But it's okay.. We'll let nature take it's course allright? (:

I am still an option that you have.

Anyway, it's a Sunday which means there's school tomorrow ): I woke up at 12pm today. No one's home again, except for my maid & I. Washed up & went online, replied emails & stuff. Planned to study! Haha & I did. A little. Hahaha. Mom came home with my new webcam (: Thanks Mummy! Now I can webcam with J without any worries! :D :D :D It made the two of us so happy, yayness! Yeh supposed to meet HVV seller & have dinner with Anabelle but plan was ruined. Ugh Uncle wanted to have dinner together so I have to cancel my plans. ): Went for dinner & came home earlier than usual.

I had plenty of thoughts running through my mind while on the way home. I don't know why but there's a lot of fear in me. I don't know luh, sigh.

I'm gonna show y'all my Tarot cards reading.
/

When everything seems to be crumbling around your ears, it can be very difficult to believe that things can and will get better. But, despite the fact that The Tower represents disruption or collapse of certain aspects within your life, these very events can often lead to brand new possibilities.

THIS WEEK'S CARD: THE TOWER

There’s no getting around this one, The Tower is not a welcome card in a reading yet, at the same time, it does not warrant feelings of panic or fear. The card can often indicate an event or period of time that could be challenging and difficult but, as is so often the case, one disaster can often lead to a new victory.

For example, an unexpected request for divorce from a spouse could be devastating, yet I know of people where such an experience led to them achieving more than they ever dreamed of because they pursued a different path as a result. Often, such an incident creates the freedom and space for a new and greater love to walk into your life.

Many people have experienced bankruptcy, lost their homes and material possessions only to change tactics and create great wealth and success. The clearing away of the old often makes way for the new.

The life lessons we learn from the turbulence indicated by The Tower help us to rethink and to approach our lives with a newfound wisdom so that we don’t make the same mistakes again.

So, if The Tower appears in your reading, then there may be something in your life that will challenge you or has challenged you, and it will be up to you how you choose to get over it and learn from the experience.

Sometimes The Tower may represent you as the person causing the disruption. Perhaps you need to make choices or decisions that are important to you but could cause material or emotional loss. In such a situation, only you can know whether you are prepared to pay the price.

The Tower can also serve as a warning that a certain choice or decision could lead to disaster, such as, if you are considering an extra-marital affair, leaving your job without a new one to step into, that kind of thing.

Take heed when this card comes up, but don’t panic or get anxious. Consider your options and choices wisely and if you can avoid such chaos, great! If chaos is forced upon you, trust that however challenging it may be, you can find a way to move forward with your life.

Love and Joy,
Alison

P.S. If the Tower describes your current life events, you're probably feeling really lousy right now. You may have no idea which way to turn and just feel that your life is falling apart. It's at times like this, that I find the Tarot most beneficial. Gaining some insight into your circumstances really helps to give you hope that there's light at the end of the tunnel, and that you'll reach it sooner of later.

April, Grace, Cherine, Amanda & Siwing would know best why I say this card is so fucking fucking fucking true.

I love being in love only because it's with you.
I'm supposed to feel happy. But I'm not feeling it at all. Damn upset over exams. I haven't finished revising yet. I'm prepared. To fail. Ugh which is so not what I'm supposed to do. Damn fucked up over some shit too, I told Cherine about it last night. Sigh. :/ Shall go sleep now. J just went offline, I shall go hit the sack too. Damn tired already, it's like 1223am. Goodnight, I want a better tomorrow.

So we stay on the open road
We drive for hours, and still no end in sight at all
Driving in your car
Miss the stop sign, fall in love.

Labels: sunday, tarotcards

Graceyeoh Haha JunkFood is this place where they sell a lot of crappy tees! :D Super lovely. I love it. Yknow those at Bugis? Yeh. I love it okay! Eh what la. What's with the DO huh?! Hahah eh Idk what to get for you ):
Beatrice Haha thank you (: Added you back in Lj! I still see you every morning during assembly :D
Angeline Choli Hahah Shu Hui! Am I smart, or am I smart? Hahaha :D Eh it's really cool what. Naturally blackened lips :P Sexy eh!

Just say how to make it right, & I swear I'll do my best to comply.



Forgiving is not forgetting, it's letting go of the hurt.

I forgave but the hurt remains. Everything that you've been doing prolongs my pain. I don't know what to do. I need to move on but our past keep holding me back. I don't know, don't ask me, I really don't know.

I wanted to blog yesterday but I was too busy trying to cry out every single ounce of energy I have in me so I didn't. Apparently, I flooded my keyboard with tears & I have to wipe it off last night before I went to sleep. I hope it doesn't spoil or something :/ I'm talking to Shu Hui, Cherine & Akina on MSN now (:

Okay that was 2 hours ago, now I'm talking to Shu Hui, Cherine, April & Jvern! Jvern is backkkkkkkk home, happy man! And now I'm on the phone with Xav. She finally realised she have a friend called Glynis who is still here for her :/

That's an hour ago. Haha it's 0145am now, I'm talking + on webcam with Jvern (: Her baby cousin is damn cute! His eyes are super big like fishball. Damn cute. :D Anywayyyyyyyy I just hung up with Xav because that idiot has got to work tmr morning & yet she doesn't want to sleep & Cherine just went to sleep. Oh Cherine is love. She said I am love too, in her blog entry. Haha, go visit! Her link is there -points. I just got to know her not long ago. She is really nice! Haha she is Miss North while I'm Miss Sengkang. Hahaha very stupid, I know. My new weekend friend, Ily! Felt a lot better talking to her actually :) Hoho, I shall blog & go to sleep.


A few days back while on webcam with Jvern in my room (:

(Friday 270407)
Went to school. Was feeling unwell so I went home during recess. It was gastric, really bad gastric. Mom & dad couldn't come & pick me so I called my maid instead. Had a nice talk with Xiu Wen. It's really long since I last get to talk to her one-to-one (: She's really nice to talk to by the way. Mrs Ong asked her to go back up to class while I sat alone outside the chapel to wait for my maid to come. Prayed & stuff until the sudden appearance of Mrs Chan distracted me. -.- I saw two buses passed & I predicted that my maid is here so I walked out when I saw her walking to the guard house. I was feeling so uncomfortable & lazy to climb the flight of stairs to go over to the other side of the road so we decided to walk home instead of taking 119.

Have I ever mention that my maid is a great listener? I tell her things that I don't tell mummy. No, nothing about my relationships, anything other thing besides that. Had a really nice long talk on the way home (: Ate, showered & went online while waiting for my hair to dry. Mom came home, I went to rest until before dinner, went online. Dad came back, had dinner & went back online. The same old dry routine. Talked to Jvern. She was preparing to go for her chalet. Made her something before she went off (:



Not gonna tell you why this photo, no no no! Haha okay that's really stupid but STILL! I'm not gonna tell you why this photo. Shall keep y'all in suspense (: She left at around 8plus & missy here felt so lonely & suddenly, my phone rang. Haha yay a text from her. Haha damn nice of her luh. Texted a little here & there. She was busy with her cousins, nieces & nephews. Tried on my new top from PirateParade :D Mega love but I don't know if I'd wear it out. Damn shyxzxz wor. Jvern texted me before she slept & yeh, I was talking to Amanda & Siwing about -. After that I updated Xanga & went to sleep at around 0230am.

(Saturday 280407)
Woke up at 0130am. No one was home 'cept for my maid ): Had brunch & showered. The rest came home & Zel just haveeeee to irritate me by squeezing next to me in the study table. I got so pissed, I moved outside in the balcony to study. She always win, ugh I just have to give in. Anywayyyyyy, I did my work as I planned to! Haha revised a little of Maths & Chem, read a little of my Lit text (: Productive though it was a little of everything. Just that I didn't study Bio la. I planned to do Maths & Sciences today. Haha nevermind, tomorrow! :D



Went for dinner with the whole family @ Downtown East (: Lemongrass Thai food! Yayness, had Ben & Jerry's for dessert. :D Walked around & went home. Was online since 9plus. Talked to Shu Hui like after 95873873926 years. Helped her friend Donna who is also my loyal fanz in her tagboard & stuff cos she got scammed but some eediots. Finally meeting her with Yifang on Tuesday to study (and shop a little, teehee) :D Stupid Shu Hui wanna take a cardboard with my name & my blog url on it & walk around her school. She thought of doing that as my birthday present. Sickening. Hahah I told her I want a Tiffany&Co.'s ring would do :D Hahaha which would cost her a bombbbb so no way. And she has decided to get me things that are red, only red, no ahlian-ish stuff. Haha yay thanks luv!


I miss my old hair. ):
Even Jvern likes my old hair. ): ): ):

Candy lips and bubblegum tongue.

Actually, my maid does know about my relationships. I told her like, 'You know auntie.. My friend's boyfriend & her yaddayadda'. I didn't tell her it's me of course, I wouldn't. I was just afraid she might tell mom about it which I kinda know she did before :/ But she did it out of good will. She wanted mom &I to be on better terms. Oh well!

"what are you doing?"
"haha thinking of you."
"awww so sweet. is that true & did that came from the bottom of your heart?"
(CENSORED)
"yes haha it's true."

Everyone go AWWWWW (:
I think I do & I hope you do too.

Oh well (: How sweet is that huh! :D

I can't seem to discover happiness without you.
Well well well, more studying tomorrow (: Might be meeting Anabelle for dinner & before that I'm gonna meet HVV seller for my purse! I'm damn excited. :D Okay gonna sleep now. Two more days to Mummy's & Grace's birthday. I am so going to die. I'm gonna surprise mom with a cake during dinner on Monday but I need to get her a gift. And Grace too!! Ah shats, I need to crack my brains, I wanna hand make something for her, she is too precious to me.

Donna, I know you'll be reading this. Ignore that passerby (: As long as you're happy, ignore whatever he/she said allright? Feel better soon! And don't just read! Hahah do comment okay, I don't bite! :D

Time check: 0248am. Goodnight everyone, I'll update tomorrow, hopefully with pictures :(

P/s: I think I.. like you. -blush [Edited: Sunday 0130pm] And now, do you think I should keep a distance from you? Or rather you should keep a distance for me so things would just stay as they are right now & go no further than that? Sigh ):[/Edited]

A long time ago, we used to be friends
But I haven't thought of you lately at all.
If ever again, a greeting I send to you,
Short and sweet to the soul I intend.

Labels: friday, late, night, saturday

Prunella Ohmy, really?! Hahah is that AMaths?! I seriously hope it is. Mm nudge me on MSN!! :D
Joey Monday ): Thanks babes, you too! :D
Mingxian Omgosh same here ): Art is killing me, other schoolwork are piling up so high like a frikkin' mountain. You can be spastic with me! :D:D:D I love you Mingxiannnnnn, Idk why but I love you :D Although you're too spastik to be true at times. You're so omg goddamn random luh Mingxian!! Haha but I love you anyway! :D Your comments always make me happy.
April Starting on Monday, so sad ): I gotta get my ass down to study already. Been lazing around too much.
Amanda I miss G.A.Y too ): A lot a lot a lot more than a lot. Especially Yuann, who is pmsing so bad she doesn't even bother about us anymore. (You hear that now, Xiaoyuann?!) It's confirmed! I'm damn excited, honestly. I can't wait to have fun with the two of you. I reallyreallyreally hope this goes well, yknow. I always wanted to celebrate your birthday with you! Just that last year (or was it last last? Idk, I forget alr) I didn't have the time to. I know you're gonna be so busy on your birthday so we shall celebrate it earlier. We need to plan okay, what are we gonna do & bring & stuff. Haha Pjs! How 'bout that, cool? :D I wannaneed see you soon Miss Foreigner. ): ): ):

Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breath you in.


Being happy doesn't mean things are perfect, it just means you've decided to look past the imperfections.

(Wednesday, 250407)
Chinese remedial was canceled forever & ever, Amen. How happy, I've got one more day to stay home! Mummy saw me walking home & we decided to have lunch together. Told mom some shit that happened at school & slowly it led to us talking about the pros & cons of getting married at a young age, or getting pregnant at a young age & all. Saw Mom's friend from her Yoga class. Very cute auntie (: Rushed through my Art again. Didn't managed to finish them up though. Was rather distracted by the laptop & all the happenings at home. Zel was being a total bitch (as usual), talking super loudly on the phone. Damn irritating. Talked + webcamed with Jvern & went to sleep at 1am (:

Jvernnnnn, thanks for accompanying me while I stay up to finish my Art (: I still want to keep you in my pocket! Or my bag, you choose :D And Best, I am so sorry that I couldn't accompany you at all. I am so sorry sorry Best. If I hadn't had Art to rush for, I'd meet you for sure. I hope you're fine. Don't get so affected by that suckerdog ok? *hugs*

I wish I could bubble wrap my heart.

(Thursday, 260407)
Art was okay.. Did our MYE piece, Still Life drawing again. :/ I tried my best, in a very rushed & hurried way, sadly. I really hope I'd do well this time. Mm handed up my Art moulting boards & got back the 'N' level one. Whoa gorgeous man, I improved quite a bit I say! :D The boards do bring back good memories huh, don't they! Times when we were so 'stressed' over Art, frikkin' 6 boards & the words 'Sure cannot make it' keep hanging on our lips. But when it comes to Os.. Sigh, maybe we should take back those words huh :/

Maths was hell but this time, the paper that Mrs Ong gave was much easier than the previous few, thank goodness. Chinese was damnnnn ARGH. Fu laoshi is so act, so action, so fake, so artificial, superficial & she got split personality. Ugh Mrs Ong came in to lecture us 'cos we did Maths in Chinese + didn't bring anything for Chinese class. Fu laoshi complained to her & she became so damn omg gentle & nice. So fake! >:@ Maths again, finished up our work. Bestaye was the (tea)cher! Hahahaha. Damn hilarious. Went Compass with Bestaye after that to collect her wallet. Some kind soul returned it to SBS. Phone was stolen though but she doesn't really give a damn & she is rather happy about it. Haha she hates her old pok phone. While waiting for her mom, we went over to Ya Kun to eat (: Couldn't finish so she kept it for Carel. Hahaha. Her mom came & she sent me home (:

Came home, showered, talked to mom & all. Zel lost her wallet. :/ Mom was so pissed. Dad was speechless. They searched for it everywhere; at home, at the void deck, the carpark, dad's car & all. The last time they saw it was when they were in Dad's car. Oh well, I don't know. That imp would never learn. She continued hogging the phone knowing that she lost her phone. :/ No that's not me. I will get so panicked & I'd even cry. Called Wing to talked for about an hour while she went to meet this buyer & get the films for Maine. Might be meeting her tomorrow with Siwing & Jamie! :) Talking to Jvern now, & we're on webcam. Super tired.

Jvernnnnn (: Latest collection. (Okay I know you're gonna hate me but I'm too lovable, you don't bear to do that I know) I'm gonna miss you tomorrow, retard, since you can't text or call. I hope you have fun at the chalet with.. (HAHAHA YKNOW WHAT I WAS GONNA SAY RIGHT?) Ervin. :D Come home soon okayyyyy, I'll miss your retarded face ): Love aplenty <3

Check this place out, damn nice clothes! Like JunkFood, I love JunkFood's stuff. Gorgeous. MYEs are starting this Monday ): And it suddenly strikes me that it's 3oth, the last day of April & it's mom's & Grace's birthday. I am so gonna die, I ought to be shot. I haven't planned anything yet. Fuckkkk

I miss you all the time but I'm blocking it out.

Not supposed to miss you hons, & whenever I do, she comes into my mind. Why?

Gonna sleep now, hella tired. I'll blog tomorrow. Sorry about the lack of photos ): Haven't have the time to upload/edit the photos. Soon allright! Go visit Agape now, quick go, it's updated! Remember to sign up to be under our mailing list allright! Goodnight sweeties, say hello to the weekends! :D

And as we lie beneath the stars,
We realize how small we are.
If they could love like you and me,
imagine what the world could be.

Labels: agape, missyou, thursday, wednesday

Cherine Replies are in your Haloscan!
Graveyeoh Awww you'll do just fine babe, I'm sure (: You'll get used to it soon! Remember I'm still here okay? Lovelove!
Shilin Replies are in your Cbox!
Michellelau Haha not exactly but definitely better than I was when I talked to you the other time (: (: (: I hope you are too!
Carol Haha hey rollll (: I love you & you know that rightttttt! :D

I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket.



Nobody takes a picture of something they want to forget.

Skipped school today. Slept at 4am last night. Did Art, it drove me nuts. Ugh woke up at 12pm & started doing Art again at 2, all th way until now, 1100pm. Goddamn tired. I'm talking + on webcam with J now (: She is damn irritating by the way, absolutely not helping at all.

The freakin' good times are killin' me.
When words become unclear, I shall focus on photographs. When images become inadequate, I shall be content with silence. That's the way things should be from now on. I give up & I'm not gonna try so hard or rather, not gonna try anymore.

Something to shareeeee (:

Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.

It's so fucking true. :/ And I found this. Hella stupid. Just check it out.


Haha it's funny la. I think it's Physics, if I'm not wrong. Don't look like Maths to me :/

She changes her nick to 'But if I asked you to not to go, would you stay?'
"Okay I'll stay if you asked me not to go"

(:

I really hate the way you're so blunt with your words, kthxbye.

I'd do fine but I might need you to hold me tight.
Allright, I'm gonna go sleep now. Super goddamn tired. Only slept for fucking 8 hours which is not enough. Ugh! Goodnight lovelies!

You're too sweet to let go of,
well I don't mean to fall in love.
Now I'm too tired to talk my way out of this one,
it's a losing game and I've had enough.

Labels: thursday

April Aww I love you April (: 11th May! :D Hahah suckerdog suckerdog suckerdog!
Bobby Haha I'm not doing fine Bobby but I'm trying to cope so yeah (: I hope your leg's better now. Haha isn't that what you wanna see! :D
Graceyeoh Thanks babes (: Thankful for youuuu. How's school, busy?
Carol Hey.. Carol? Caroline? Who! ):

Untie this rope & let it go.



It's only after you lost everything that you're willing to try anything.

A super wordy post, so sorry babes. My day is so fucked. I am so fucked.

I'm in such a aff-ed erup mood, I'll type whatever comes to my mind about school allright. No bio practical this morning. Did Bio Tea-Why-Ass. I know no shiz. I'm dead. Am-Why-Yi's next week & I haven't been doing as much as I'm supposed to. Mrs Lee weren't in school today so no SS but we did our chapter 2 mind map which is helpless to our exams 'cos we'd never use the mind map to revise. Fu laoshi was in class but she wanted to go through some oral shitz so yeh we were just plain doing our own stuff. I've got nothing better to do so I cleared my pencil case, Sass' & my file :D Recess then it was English. Omggggg I was hoping Miss Chew would go for the workshop but she didn't. She made us do comprehension which I decide that I'll only ask for answers if I really need to. Bio, effin' boring. Did my English 'cos I know no shit about Bio. Maths, did some Algebra worksheet & continued with my English. Finished the summary in Miss Chew's class & went straight home after dismissal. Walked to Compass with Mich (: It only started raining when I was about to leave Compass. Thunders & lightnings!! ): ): ): They scare the wits outta me! Omg & this uncle who was walking behind the wall, cos I couldn't see him & when we both met at the edge of the wall, oh my! I got a shock okay!! Haha damn retarded. He got a shock too actually :/

Went home, showered, did my work & met Si Wing & her friend, Nicolette at Compass. Went to Cold's Storage, bought stuff. Down to SKCC, posted the stuff & went to withdraw money for Si Wing. Brought cakes & stuff for mom, walked Si Wing to the bus stop & went home. Dad came back after I did, he showered & we went for dinner. Godma's back from NZ (: She got me a hoodie & a lip gloss :) :) :) Happy. Aunt Helen got me a Hard Rock Cafe badge :D I saw the photos they took, the place is so beautifullllllll! Aww I wanna be there too, in such a cold, cool & comfy weather. Went home, came online & did my work.

I was talking to Val after dinner. I knew we both have a lot to say, emails are just not enough you know. So I just sat beside her, & she went, 'Eh sit down, sit down..' smiling while pulling a stool over the other side for me. I smiled back at her, & sat down. We started off talking about school, the preparation of Os & stuff. Told her I'm quite fucked at the moment, things just don't go my way & all but everyday I hope for the better. She taught me to be a little more optimistic about things, I can remember that. Told her some stuff about _ as well. She's proud of me, I can tell. She kinda know what I'm thinking & she knows how I was feeling at that very moment when _ happened, she could perceive why I'd feel this way, why did I do this & that. At that moment, I felt so gleeful having her as my cousin-in-law. We appear to be very hi-bye, not so close & stuff but actually we're really close, just that with the countless complications we have in the family, we just feel that we shouldn't be so close when everyone else is around. That aside, mom told me yesterday that Sally told her something went wrong in Val's body which concerns her baby. I was helluva worried but mom told me to keep it to myself. I was hoping Val would tell me about, if not I'd ask how's the baby & the girls(Nat & Pearlyn).

Finally after keeping quiet for 15 minutes, she talked to me about it. Tears welled up in her eyes & I was praying she doesn't cry 'cos everyone would think that I just bullied a pregnant lady! K enough Glyn. She went to the doctor's for a check up that day & found a white spot on the baby girl's heart which is a symptom of down syndrome. >:( The doctor said it isn't a very big matter because she's a Chinese. (I got no idea what's the difference okay, I'm dying to know!) After much discussion with the doctor, and within the couple themselves, Val decided to go to NUH for another check, a second opinion. The results came & it was a small matter. Val felt so relieved but before she could really let her hair down, the doctor told her that this particular blood vessel located around the baby's arm was somehow at the wrong position. (I got no idea what that means la okay) She was so worried. Doctor said that if she wants to have a peace of mind, he suggest that she should go for this scary(to me) test. After a night of consideration, Allan brought her back to NUH the next morning for the test. The doctor poked a needle into her tummy. Oh my oh my, I feel the shiver down my spine ): So painful for her, so painful for the baby. The needle was supposed to like, suck up something I don't know what but cannot, cannot poke the baby. Val couldn't take the fear, nor the pain, she burst out crying which caused the doctor to stop & asked her to calm down. She stopped crying & held on to Allan's hand super tightly, so tight that Allan told her the blood stopped -.- Stupid Allan. The test results would only be out this coming Thursday.

I really hope things would be fine. ): ): ): Looking at her, so weak & all, I feel so painful & tiring for her. August come quick, so baby niece would be out & end all Val's sufferings. :/

I found this weeks ago while doing my Art stuff.


Not Val's tummy la. Mom thought it was scary but I find it so amazing (:

Oh oh oh! Daddy got me a room at Pan Pacific Hotel! (: He wanted to celebrate Mummy's birthday there but I'd be having my papers then & I won't be able to go. Mummy didn't feel like going either. I was just giving a passing remark, 'Eh give it to me lor. Haha kidding la kidding! And dad was like, 'Okay lor. When you want?' I was so stunned. Looking at the way he asked me & all, he was serious this time. You guys don't know how happy I was though I was worrying about one thing which I'm not worrying about anymore. I just told Amanda about it, & we're both helluva excited! :D :D :D Gonna ask Xiaoyuann to come along & we're gonna celebrate Amanda's birthday early. I was trying to keep my cool la, but yeh she was typing in caps which got me excited too. Hahaha yeh, we're meeting this Thursday & Saturday (: (: (: So excited to see them! :D Omg I cannot waittttttttt :D

"Some friends are just not forever" - Kj to Amanda.

After all that I've-got-uncertain-something-for-you moments, she changed nick to 'To make her love me.'
"Eh why you change your nick to that one?"
She don't know what to reply.
"I will love you okay?"
She smiled widely as her heart melts to her words.

:D

Somebody like you can really make things all right for me♥
Okay it's Art time. Time to draw. I don't know if I'd have the time to sleep tonight but whatever. I'm gonna go talk to J while I draw & I'll go sleep if I have the time. If not I'd skip school. That is if I really buay tahan. Goodnight lovelies, I hope y'all have a great day at school tomorrow (:

P/s: What's a girl to do with friends like this?

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I realised I missed out Sunday's update. Tsk, another time. Art first. It's fucking 0123am. I don't think I'll get any sleep tonight. Gosh fuck it. And stupid J wants to sleep & leave me here alone. Fine, I can't blame her for she has got school & meeting in the morning with her friends. Rah!! ):
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I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Labels: fuckedup, late, wednesday

Graceyeoh Hahaha I don't know. I just find it rather cool (: I don't wanna be thin to the extend you can see my bones like a super fine & thin cloth cover over the bones, that kind yknow. As long as my collarbones & hipbones are very obvious(cos now they are not so prominent), I'm happy enough :D But those people in there are waaaaaaaaaaaay too skinny la okay. Too much!! Aiyo what is the world becoming to? Some too fat, no boyfriend, some too thin also no boyfriend. Must be average :D I want to be average! Awwww that's sad ): It's okay, I'll have my chance if I don't continue my way of working right now. :/ I gotta start studying man. Have fun in school allright! Thanks for listening that day babe. (: (: (:
Joey Hahaha yeap (: I'll tag you when I have the time kay (:
JoveneL Yes uniform! You don't mind right? Save time, don't have to travel so much as well (:
Jo Why? Why every school is like that now uh ): That's sad. Rahhh nevermind then ): You take care too allright (:
Jvern Hoi gang leader! Hahaha (: Sickening la you, stop the =_=" face! >:@!!

Cause everywhere I look, I can see how you hold her.



The greatest mistake you can make in life is continually fearing that you'll make one.

I see gloomy skies over my head. They've been there since Friday morning. Natural time of the month la brother. :/ It's gonna go on for a week, gonna ruin my whole week like that.


On webcam with Jvern. Check out what she drew for me. Bloody retarded but a very good attempt to make Miss Grumpy smile (: Well she has been great company for the past week. Eh that's fast man, we know each other for about a week already! Hahaha it's been really cool having her around just that I'm speaking more of Singlish & broken English instead of eloquent English. :/ Gahhh.

Friday, 200407
Four more months to my seventeenth birthday & Sass' second year anniversary (:
School was allright but super boring. We're all piled up with work. Especially Maths. Mrs Ong's a killer, I swear. Miss Teh too. Omgosh we're only done with either three or four boards & she wants s-e-v-e-n fucking seven boards by next week. Omggggggg. Went home after school to rest. Super damn tired. Supposed to meet Jov & Shar but Jov got sports day (which she didn't attend in the end) & Shar can't go out. Bleah. Supposed to meet Xav but she was with her friend. Making things worse, time-of-the-month came. My mood was swinging really badly. So I decided to head home & nowhere else. Texted Jvern the whole day, chat on MSN & webcam in the night before we both turn in (: She's bloody funny.

Too weak to be your cure.

Saturday, 210407
Woke up super early today for the dumb Chinese oral. It's not Os Chinese oral, it's for MYE. If I knew it was for MYE, I wouldn't even come luh. Waste my time, sickening. Met the rest out at the bus stop, went in, settled down all. Sat around & talked, Bestaye, Sass, Trish, Serene, Shyan & myself (: The passage was about people who goes on a vacation, who are well & fit unlike those who wants to go but can't because of their physical conditions. The conversation was about teenagers in Singapore being too pampered & spoilt. I screwed it, I swear. Strangely, I thought the passage's the one that I'd have problems on while the conversation, I doubt I'd have any problems. But who knows, this time round, it's the other way :/ Boohoo, boo bloody hoo! Bestaye waited for me, & we sat by the stairs to wait for Sass since she's next. Took a bus & went home.

Stayed home 'til about 5pm. I was doing my work while texting/talking + on webcam with Jvern. Went to Aunt's place for dinner (: Andddddd guess what? Daddy got Uncle to buy me the laughing Elmo! :D Click on the link if you don't know what am I talking about. Watch the videoooooo! :D Okay, pictures will do the talking!


I like this (: Esp the third one, oh my, my expression is so.. WHOA. I don't know how to describe.

My baby cousinnnnnn :)

Disney Princesses (:

Cherilyn, Maine

She, in her undies! Hahahahaha

Her new toy. Got engine one okay!


The scenery over at their place is fabbbb.

I took this randomly (: Zel's phat s behind.

Maine's so scared of the laughing Elmo!


Maine looks like her mom(left, top) right? :) So cute luh they two.

Si Wing can't make it tmr ): I'm so sad luh. Nevermind, I shall stay home & do my work. Probably when I finish, I'll go out. :D Tons of work to do, don't know if I can finish by tomorrow man. I'm still talking to Jvern. We're like talking 24/7 excluding sleep/shower time [: And she is super retarded &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; lame. Oh & she is from planet Mars!! :D Hahahahaha I shan't paiseh her by saying why I say she's from Mars in here :P Eh I give you face hor, gang leader!

I need you so much closer.
I shall go talk to her now. Mm Sunday tomorrow! Then it's Monday. Gosh this is frikkin' fast man ): Rahhh I dread school so much please & Os too. Ugh fuck it.

Eh, you. Yes you. No, don't look elsewhere. Why is it that strangers or even passers-by do not get short, one-word/one-lined answers, mean & annoyed tone from you like I do?

I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me
When you know I'm not okay.

Labels: friday, jermaine, photos, saturday

Joey Hahaha sure (: Your comments are always so hyper, gives a high kinda feeling yknow. Hahaha (:
Graceyeoh But omg I really like some of their figures! I mean, I've got a fetish for hipbones & collarbones so yeh :D Heh. I don't like the one that shows the whole spine/backbone, or even ribs!! Omg damn scary! But it's amazing how one thinks. Like really whoa. I always thought being ane was cool & I always wanted to be ane. But gee, it kills so no way. I've got -sings a long way 2 go! :D
Jvern So now you think you very cool la huh? I'm toot, stupid, what else? Jay-vernnnnnnn! Hahaha I think you're gonna kill me :P Okay la okay Ivan la Ivan. -make faces :P
Jo Omgosh this is bloody cool! I shall go visit someday if I can, when I am free. No promises allright babes, school's a killer, it isn't like you don't know. You understand right? :)
Tammy Hahahaha really? I think I look rather shitty eh. Hahah thanks anyway love! :D
JoveneL Not free cansxz, Imma busy woman! Hahahaha. Yeap Friday (: See you allright Jov. Have fun at Sports Day!! Win something okay? :D Hahahahah
Jasmine It's okay luh, it's over anyway.

Fat bottomed girls, you make the rockin' world go round.



We do not know the true value of our moments until they have undergone the test of memory.

I'm talking Jvern online now, texted her almost the whole day. Stupid loser :D Hahaha. She's a goddamn fucking sweet girlfriend luh okay, anyone who got her is damn lucky. Ugh we're into that topic now of course, if not why would I say that right?

Every night another story's told.

And I'm actually quite lazy to blog. And I've got SS test to study for. Haha I didn't go today luh, was lazy so I told Mrs Lee I had to go home. I did went home, of course. Showered & all, Zel woke up from her beauty sleep & started to irritate me. Omgosh, keep asking me to go Compass with her. Being such a lovely sister, I delayed her time a little but still, I went :D Got my Bio TYS changed 'cos I bought the wrong one. Bought sweets, magazines & more sweets :D Came home, did my work, dinner & back to my work :D

This is the result of laziness. Sorry luh, I'm not in the mood to blog today ):

She says,
Nothing lasts forever in this crazy world.

Actually.. I'm glad I met you (: You brought joy in here, somewhere in my life hons. I don't know how did you managed to but you just do. This joy that I can't spell was brought in when you came. ♥

I added a few new sites under dailies, by the way. Sgsecrets & all :) I wrote a supaaaa long entry on Xanga. Actually no, it's the photos that make the entry looks long. Hahaha (: Oh & those who have added me in Xanga, I am so sorry if I didn't reply you or rejected you okay. It isn't that I dislike you or what but the entries in there are uhhh a tad too personal. Unless I know you personally, & I do trust you. Sure go ahead, I'll let you have the key to my Xanga. Err those unknown people, hur, I am so sorry okay. :/ Please do understand that. I hope you'd respect my privacy (: Thank you!




Camwhored (: Heh. I miss pictures in school uniform. There's more actually but I haven't edit them yet. the lightings are really bad so I need to edit them yeh. Oh the photos with Amanda & Xiaoyuann. Ahhhh I'll upload them soon! :D

I love you even though, I hate this thing that we've become.
Okay 1230am now, shall go read the SS notes, & go to sleep. From tmr onwards, if my maid calls once, Daddy calls me once in the morning & I don't wake up, I'll stay home :D Hahah I'm looking forward maaaaaaaaaaan! Okay retarded, I hope I don't wake up tmr *cross fingers* I wanna stay in tmr luh. Hahaha. I need to make a trip down to TPY tmr to get some stuff done. Hohoho. I'm gonna sleep now. Goodnight!

P/s: I hope PFT's 5 batteries went well for the rest (:

I haven't done much for you
and I'm afraid I never will
Didn't tell you that I'm sorry
For the part of you i killed

Labels: photos, thursday

Amanda I'm gonna miss you hell a lot so please come home safely okay? I'll see you when you're back allright! And right now, I guess you're sneezing. I'm thinking of you while typing this. You & your blurness! Hahaha take great care & you know I love you a lot a lot too! Don't mention that bit, you did a lot for me ok babes, just by listening. Muahmuah <3 *HUGS BACK*
Jo No problem! :D So how was school? Was it fun was it fun? :D
Jasmine Hah & you didn't tell me.
Graceyeoh 11points, I cannot la! I'm only aiming for about 15/17. But at this rate I'm going, I doubt I can ): I don't have the motivation luh babes. But I'll try okay. Blogging is a way of letting whatever I have in me out & a place where I keep my memories. I'm afraid I'd forget them someday. Take care :)
April We're hanging out really soon :) Yayness! :D Hahah talk cock is okay la :D I do that all the time too what. Thanks for helping me with my maths all the time :D Teehee
Jvern Yay haha! But you called me a stupid girl in the other post! Asshole. :P

The worst is over, you can have the best of me.



Friendship is the comfort that comes from knowing that when you feel all alone, you aren't.

Well you used to show me how that felt like. Thanks Amanda, I like that line in your entry. 'And thanks Glynis for smsing me during camp to keep me accompany! I hope you feel better soon ohkay. Your friendship is much treasured by me, if it's not by someone else. (:' You're my utmost adoration! :D Well well well, finally, the videos are finally done uploading! & here are the two :)





It's really funny, go watch it. I'm the one who said yeh in one of the videos. :D

I was looking around in Friendster's bulletin & I saw one of them about horoscopes. I guess I'm very into that huh. I reposted it so if y'all wanna see yours, go check it out if you're my friend in friendster (:

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Last line is so crap.

Skipped school today (: I planned to stay in & rest, think through some things, get some shitz off my mind, get my stuff done but it was ruined. :/ Went to the doctor's at around 1pm, took 965 with Zel & all. She was sick, really sick. Spent like a hundred & seventy plus at the doctor's :/ Daddy came to foot the bill & we went off to get bread from some bakery. Daddy drove Zel to tuition at Aunt's place & we went Sheng Siong supermarket after that :D:D:D You don't know how much I love to go to that place though it's wet & dirty. I love marketing, I love buying things at the market. Heh. I miss spending time like that with Daddy. Though we didn't talk much as Daddy was on the phone most of the time but I really did enjoyed myself in Daddy's car, talking to him, telling him what happened on the bus & all. Daddy got me parsley! :D I love it I love it. Had it for dinner (: Heh.

Came home, went to Compass with mom. Got my Popular card renewed 'cos the covering was coming off, got my Bio TYS as well. Brought some stuff & went home :)

I love you Daddy, though you shout at me almost everyday & sometimes, without a reason. *sends love* :) I love you Mummy, though you thought that I was seven years old by asking if I can make it to Yishun just with Zel alone & sometimes you really make me hate you so fucking much. You did the greatest job as my mummy, can't do without you. *hugs* :)



1. I like this (:
2 & 3. More of me than Zel eh. She refuses to move in luh!
4. I tied my hair this way tday (:

I thought I'd forget you
but I guess I forgot to.
Jvern makes me smile, at times. She thinks she's very cute by being so retarded & lame okay. Hahaha. Thanks lovely, for staying by my side these few days (: Jia pa lan! Stupid shit la you. Hahaha okayyyyyy tmr's a Thursday, finally. Got SS test after school. Gonna go study now & do my art after that. Goodnight ladies (:

I just don't understand how you
can smile with all those tears in
your eyes and tell me
everything is wonderful now.

Labels: doctor, horoscope, photos, supermarket, videos, wednesday