I CAN FINALLY UPDATE :D
Not that SingNet is done with their dumb repairs of the connection & stuff but I've figured out a way so I can access into the 'Create Post' site. Gahgahgah (: I'll be replying comments in the next post allrighttttttttt (:

I see through your lies, they're bleeding from your eyes.



Sometimes the road less traveled is less traveled for a reason.

Imma' copy + paste the LJ post in here. I'm lazy (:

Like I said, I'd be blogging here until blogger decides to stop being a fucked up bitch & allow me to go back there. And actually.. I haven't edit my entry that I was gonna blog in here but whatever I'll do that later :)

Well, okay, let's see what I've not updated in blogger. Thursday, Friday & today, 3 days. It feel as though I haven't been blogging for a week or so, seriously! Haha. It's 0145am, SingNet's having problems & J's unable to send text over to me in MSN. Ugh we can't webcam & we're text-messaging instead (:

I can't remember what exactly happened on Thursday but one thing I'd never forget is that I worked all the way 'til daybreak for art & had only an hour of rest & went to school. I actually survived! I was surprised. I was on the verge of giving up. I told Wing while we were still talking on MSN. Was damn hella tired, seriously. Went to school reluctantly with only 1/2 of my art research done. Science MCQ was fucked up. I was too restless to actually do it. But I did try, really! I keep going on, trying to concentrate. Finished it half an hour before the paper ends (which actually meant that I finished the paper in half an hour :/) & went straight to sleep. Art paper was okay (: Putting the research aside, I hope I'd do well. I gave in my all, really. I was damn tired. I finished my piece, cleared my desk & went to sleep. I didn't get to do the research at all during the paper 'cos teachers were walking around & all.

Mm went to Bras Basah Complex after the paper with the rest of the art girls. Got nothing there though. I only needed wood 'cos I'm doing wood-burning & ArtFriend doesn't have the kinda wood that I wanted so Miss Teh suggested that we'd get it from Ikea another day with the rest who are doing wood-burning. Gah I need a size & I haven't thought it yet. I just needed something like the one I did last year. That size would do. I gotta go check it out. Hmm went home straight after the paper. I was so tired. Showered, dried my hair with the hair-dryer & went straight off to sleep. Woke up, talked to reignited & J then went to get dinner. Was tired & hungry. So poor thing. Hahahaha I shan't dwell in self-pity! Was on the laptop 'til around 1am, texted J & slept (:

Well, today, woke up @ 0130pm in the after noon & went to Aunt's place at around 3pm. Watched a lot of teevee programs! :D Heh watched Be With Me on cable ch 55, some Taiwan entertainment show that was really entertaining & MTV Cribs :) Mom bought a cake to celebrate Mother's Day! Jermaine was all hyped up when Mom told her to get the cake ready. Really cute :) I've got photos but I'll upload them soon. Went home at around 9plus & came online. Stupid SingNet. Grr.. Of all servers, SingNet must be the one with problems. That is bad. I thought it'd be Starhub :/ Hahaha. Sorry la but I trust Singtel more [:

The show on Channel 8's really sad. The male lead's mom died because of his dad & before she died, she told him to stop fighting & go look for his dad, forgive & acknowledge him & he promised. Now when he finally found his dad & come to a point where he is gonna forgive him, (yknow all that calling him Dad drama) he died. He was fighting with some idiots before that luh. So sad right :/ Hahaha.

Oh & before I forget, it's escapist12 's, my Best, eighteenth birthday so..
Happy eighteenth, Best! :D
May all your wishes & dreams come true :) Had fun, I hope. We needa talk soon allright!
P/s: I hope you got your tattoo, I wanna see :D

I'll be back tomorrow. I'm tired & I'm going Xanga before I go off. Goodnight everyone.

That was on the 12th :)

Labels: friday, mye, saturday, thursday

Meihar Like I said, you can choose not to comment since you find it troublesome but since you wanted to comment, don't complain allright! :D
Graceyeoh It's okay hons, respect your privacy (: Set up our own blog? We both share it or what?
Amanda Hello love. Yes, we haven't been talking much & I always see you lj user around in others' profile! Hahaha. Yeh I think you both know each other. Hahaha take care :)
Yf I am so tired luh wtf. Okay okay meet up soon :)

Don't let them tell you that there's a right way to fall in love.



Sometimes the hardest things to let go of; are the things we never really had.

I've never felt this pathetic before. Not in my seventeen years of living. So fucking pathetic. I could have walk out of the expressway & let a oncoming speeding car crash me. I would really like that to happen now so this overworked heart of mine can finally be at rest. I can never do anything to make myself feel better, make things any better. All I can ever do is cry, wipe the tears off my face & fake a smile to go.

And tears fall for the same reason & the same person all the time. My tear gland listens to her. She goes away, they start working; she comes back & they stop. Not only that, angels above pulls the string to bend my lips in a positive curve & that seemed as though she's the angel of the angels whom everyone is afraid of & would start working only when she is around.



Right up 'til now ever since things never went my way, I've been hoping, praying, wishing that things would get better anytime soon. Pert told me to never stop believing that they really are gonna get better because when I do, I am shoving the green light to the devil, asking if he could enter. The same fucking old line that I always repeat in my head, keep telling & asking myself. A better tomorrow, tear no more & things are gonna get better right, Glyn? :)

/

Time check: 0101am.
Thank God for tomorrow's late paper. But I guess I'll still wake up early to read my Bio notes. I am really tired now. I wanted to sleep but couldn't awhile ago before I starting blogging in here but now I am so tired after the cry. Rahhhh. Watched After Hours & I love it. I want the song So Real by Linda Liao. Really love it :) Awesome song. I've got Keep Me Alive by Linda Liao! I want another song by her, Ye Xu. It's a Chinese song ): It sounds nice, I don't know what it means though.


I know you love♥

You've got me feelin' like a child now
Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tinglies in a silly place.
(:

Chemistry paper was a killer. I answered every question though. Some, I answered blindly, couldn't think of what to write so eh anyhow :/ Some I really know the answer. Some I know I have read it somewhere before the paper but I forget. Ugh. Went home after the paper, some fucked up shit happened & xx again. Walked to school around 12pm for Lit paper which I couldn't finish before 1408 ): I was rushing, trying to write fast & yet clear. That's definitely not an easy job eh. Mm section B, I only managed finished part one& one quarter of part two.

Went home after that. Everyone was home. Showered, sat by the com & did work. Printed notes, wrote a little. J came home & we finally got to talk. We talked, joked & stuff, on webcam 'til about 11plus & she turned in. She's can't do without sleep so yeh. And we're both idiots, seriously. We've got no plans after tomorrow's movie. Idk where to go! Rahhh shall just wait & see luh huh. Xav's comp is back, finally, after so long. Talked a little here & there. I was hella busy, like multimultitasking. Wtf is that word, I really don't know. Anyway, what I wanna say is that I'm glad Xav & I are on talking terms. At least she isn't MIA anymore (:

Xav & I - Conversation

Me I really hope someday she'll regret for whatever she have done :/
Her She will, someday she will. It sounds cliche but fact is, she has to fall down, and lose once, before she learns how to cherish.

True enough, y/n?

Her You should learn to be a little heartless.. Like me.
Me How to be heartless? Rip out my heart? Rofl.. okay sorry. :/

Okay that was just me being spastik :D Teehee!

Hey Xav♥, thanks :) For listening & being there.
And for frightening me by saying that she was right beside you then, mf -.-

Some guys are so sick. They add you in MSN, keep telling you gross stuff & they keep hitting on the webcam button. That fucking Mayhem guy. Gosh. And the recent one is an Indie. Rahhhh! I went straight to block & delete. There's one more, I can't remember his name. But whatever, goddamn annoying people should just go to hell.

Sorry about the emo/sad post. To make it up, how about a fucking lame comic? (:


It's quite retarded I know. Tsk :/

Sometimes lonely hearts, they just get lonelier♥
Meeting Jvern tomorrow after paper. I think I'll go home to change first. Maybe not. Depends on my mood. I'll ask mummy & see what she says. Watching horror movie, The Letters of Death? I don't know, I can't remember. After tomorrow, I'll be left with three more papers, Science practical, Maths P2 & Art (: Ha I haven't finish my Art research, how great! Okay I'll finish on Wednesday since there's no paper. And hooray! I'll be seeing April on Friday (: We're gonna hunt every Forever21 & Topshop outlet. Okay time check! 0201am, I took exactly an hour. Goodnight everyone! Good luck for your next few papers♥

P/s: Doesn't it excites you when you see me being so pathetic & helpless? I didn't know that's what you learn in church, y'know. It's okay hons. Yknow Karma? It'll bite you back.. *counts* probably twenty times (ten times more than other usual people because.. well, you're special?) harder on your ass for what you've done. Well wanna know why? Then, listen up. Because you fucking need to learn.

But did you know i was blind for you
Did you know you meant everything to me
and if I had one more change, this time
I would have meant the world to you

Labels: angst, fuckedup, late, monday, mye, night, sadness, tears

Yifang That thing! Lot1! I can't make it any more obvious okay, or we three, which consist of you, Shuhui & myself, will die in someone's hands. I don't wanna die like that.
Nicole Heh thanks! Given you those urls (:
Shuhui WHICH PICTURE? ):
Phyllis Haha thanks Phyllis (: Comment whenever you pop by allright? Go get a private blog or something, I really wanna know you are doing. Take care & goodluck for midyears (:
Mary Hello MARYLAND! Hahahaha (:
Graceyeoh Okay I'll change the codes & all, put them into Notepad & send it over to you okay? Graceeeeeee go get a private blog so you can rant & say everything in there. Maybe an Lj or Xanga(SO I CAN ADD YOU, YOU CAN ADD ME!!) okayyyyyy 'cos we haven't have the time to talk & update each other. ):
Jvern Hello :) You always say that. Hahaha one day it'll lose it's meaning but still! I want you to say, rofl. Mm take care & get well soon okay? I am so sorry about late nights ): No more okay, I promise! No more ): from me when you say you wanna turn in, pinky promise!

I want to be the girl who makes your bad days better.



Life is a change, sometimes it's painful, sometimes it's beautiful, but most of the time it's both.

PAIREES HILLTON GOEZ TWO JAILL?!
Yes, so bloody funnehhhh. I was shocked at first. I thought she'd bribe them so she won't have to go to jail. Oh well, even if she goes, she gets the better treatment & all, I fell. Read it here (:

I'm watching tv, the charity show, the 3 guys, I forget what's their name. I used to love them & their songs a lot, especially the babyish one! Okay that's more than ten years ago la okay. Talking to April & on webcam with J :) I keep staring at my Xanga post. :/ If only I can publish it here! I don't know the language just flows in that entry, so nice! :D

Weekends are here & they're going off soon ): Monday's just a few hours more. Oh well, another week to mug & study really hard before I can let go of all these notes, books & whatnots for awhile (just awhile la!). I stayed in on both days, Saturday & today. The same old routine. Woke up late, showered, went online, studied here & there, did a little of Art, study, dinner, talked to J, webcam & watched tv. Slept really late at around like 2 plus 3am. But last night was the latest, I slept at like 3 plus going 4am? Haha yeh (:

J & I are planning our outing on Tuesday which is kinda screwed up & we both don't know what to do now. We planned to 200 Pounds Beauty but the timing that we both can make it is at Tampines, 0245pm & dearest J don't know how to travel there. She wants to cab there but omg I feel so bad :/ Hahaha. Okay now, we wanna watch err The Letters of Death. I told her I'll scream & she is going to bring scotch tape -.- So mean!

I want this. ): I want all of them but it's so costly! Maybe I'll save up to buy one. Just one. I have to be decisive & choose only one.

Oh! J was being annoying that day & she decided that she will have the same display picture as I do.


So annoying right? So I did the same.


Hahahaha :D

Do you love me? (Say yes!) Okay rate for me please! Click here! :D

I've got to know this girl who's called Sara over some forum. She is really nice & all, doing Os too (: And coincidentally, we're both facing the same problems. GAHGAH. Hahaha!


Waiting, I need a sign.
):

Maybe we can sleep in, I'll make you banana pancakes & pretend like its the weekend now♥
I'm quite excited & she knows it. Haha yayness (: I'm gonna go read my Literature & Chem notes, watch teevee & hit the sack! :D Such a lousy entry, I know. I am so sorry ): Goodnight everyone, goodluck to those having papers tomorrow (: (: (:

Remember when we were in California?
We were so much happier then.
Now we're back in New York City,
Looking for love in the lies of a lonely friend.

Labels: mye, saturday, study, sunday

Graceyeoh Are you talking about your undying urge?! Aw grace! Go join her la okay, I wouldn't blame you, just go allright. PERIOD THE END NO CORRECTION TAPE, WHATEVER FLUID FULLSTOP. Omg okay cool, I wanna know how is it like man (: In the show she is damn crazy, psycho & all, very scary yknow! I didn't watch the front part so I don't know the story at all. Ugh maybe I'll watch the show again another time. :D
Yifang I KNOW I KNOW!! I wanted to take ID Photos but you have to get home already so nevermind lor. :D Yknow whatever you said about ... is damn disturbing ): Hayte choo four telling me that!
Prunella Haha I will I will! I ate today! :D Heh love you many Pru (: Ignore that sick bitch, I hope she stops bitching about you yes? Muah!
Cherine Aloha back to you Cherine (: I love you many many many! Heh muah!
Beatrice Eh? Hahaha I think I have err.. 3 :X
Carol Welcome honey (: I love you!

Your heart is an empty room with walls of the deepest blue.



Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain.

(Thursday 030507)
I had a horrible night the night before. I spent the whole night crying my guts out. Thanks Pert, for being there all the time [: The cry was good, it made me feel a lot better, wrote a whole lot of things in the diary. Though the cry soaked my notes, & had a pile of soiled tissues by my bed side, not forgetting me waking up with a pair of swollen eyes, I guess it was worthwhile (:



Chinese paper was easier than I thought it would be. The last two comprehension was the worst. I couldn't understand a single thing about the passage at all. Gosh. I hope to get around 40-50 over a total of hundred marks. I don't hope to pass. :/

I didn't bring my SS notes home to study for the frikkin' test. I only remember that when I was on the way home, GAH >:( Went home, called up the Popular stores nearby & the publishers but the book is nowhere to be found. Went online to search & managed to get some & Xiuwen offered to help me scan (: (: (: Thanks hubby, I love you to bits & pieces! Went for dinner with Aunt, Pearlyn, Nat & Godma. Dinner was great, I haven't eaten so much recently. Omgosh the cereal prawns are the bomb <3! Love it love it. Came home, printed my notes, talked to J for a bit(We didn't get to talk much :[) & went off to study 'til 2am.

Check out Pearlyn's toenail.

I don't know how it ended up like that but I heard that it was Nat (again) who pushed the door so hard that her toes went right into the little opening under the door. Omg so pain luh. At first, the whole toe went black, it became a blue black & all, & now the nail came off -.- So pain!


Pearlyn (:
Who ate exceptionally much that night without having to say, 'I don't want already, I scared fat'. Honestly, everyone can't wait to see that fat Pearlyn again :D Heh she was so cute, so frikkin' cute years back when she was like 2 years & 30kgggggg!

(Friday 040507)
I was so fucking tired. 4 hours of sleep only ): It's Friday! So I'm gonna sleep more. Mm probably until Sunday morning. Yeh dream on. I've got Chem & Lit to study for, Art research to start on. I am going to start this weekend. I found pictures already so I'm gonna draw. 10 A3-sized pages worth of research, I can do it I can do it I can do it! :D

Had lunch with mom after school (: Zel went to her friend's place. She lied to mummy & she found out about it. I feel so guilty, seeing the younger Glynis in her. I used to lie, tell mummy I'm going over to A's place when I'm actually at Z's place. I lied about almost everything I do, I got so used to it even if it's something that I need not lie about, I still did. It was not until the last few years when mummy told me that having to tell a lie, I have to come up with ten other lies to cover up that lie. But by then, I'd be lying eleven times over just that one matter. And my lies are always so creative yknow. Haha I think mummy has a whole long list of them.

Anyhoos, I went around calling all of Zel's friends to ask if she was with them. And in the end, she was with that friend of hers, Jamin who is down with, (pause, shut eyes & sigh) CHICKEN POX. I was so !!!! 'Cos I never had chicken pox (touch wood, any kind of wood, all kinds of wood) before. I was so pissed, speechless & I really don't know what to do with her, how to teach her. I kept reminding her, 'Eh Grizel ah, you better don't go to her place. Chicken pox is infectious yknow' but she doesn't listen to me ): I am so scared, I don't wanna stay home 24/7, no fan, no aircon ): AH AND THE SCARIEST PART! THE FUGLY SCARS LEFT BEHIND. Rahhhhh Grizel is going to die if I.. SHHHHHHHHHH!! Ah omg ): Bless me please, good health for me, good health!

Okay, overdue photos (:

010507


Attempt fayled, Glyns.

020507





I like the last one. It was a random shot (:

I feel like I owe you everything 'cause you were there when I had nothing♥
Cherine just sent me sum luff over MSN (: I like her top from Topshop! Gahgah I need to shop after midyears. Might be meeting J next week for movie! I want Shrek 3! Shrek 3! Shrek 3! J's gonna act Shrek for me if we don't get to watch the show :P Right J? Heh. I'm on webcam + talking to her now (: Okay gonna go sleep now. Goodnight! :D Have a great weekend ahead girls!

Life was made for you to live.
The best love is the love that you give.
There'll be times when you wanna
Hold on but you gotta let go.

Labels: fear, friday, mye, photos, tgif, thursday

Mingxian I am not gonna give you an ice cream. Grace & I are gonna video you :P You actually know the word paiseh. Your dictionary got that word, wah I didn't know eh! Hahahah omg I'm so mean. Hahaha yeh you add me okay? I don't have your email :/ Why are you so busy, I hate choo! >:( Mm peninsula plaza is such a ulu place ):
Graceyeoh I AM NOT GONNA JOIN HER! No ice cream! Let's video her, threaten her that we'll put up that video on YouTube if she doesn't pay us. (ROFLMAO!) Yes I know how can I ever go Vivo to study right? Ohwell, read on. :/ Okay I'll teach you but after my myes, is it okay? OHMYOHMY GOT WEB DESIGN MODULE?!! I want I want! I can teach you whatever I know but you gotta teach me whatever you know & I don't. I don't care I don't care I don't care!! Proper english caps as in even in my replies huh? Hahah I don't know, I'm trying to make it a habit so even when I talk in MSN, I'll still type like that (:
Carol I just asked her about you today (: I hope teachers would stop giving you problems. Ah whatever it is, I hope life would treat you better. *hugs*
April I have so much to tell & ask you. Idiot. I hate your mom luh though she is doing this for your own good :/ I'll tryna blog in Xanga okayyyyyy. I hope you & J are okay already yeh (: Love you!

My lullaby sounds more like distant screams.



Sometimes it's best to forget what you feel & remember what you deserve.

GASTRIC ATTACK ): ): ):
I almost died, gosh so damn fucking painful. I hope it doesn't come tomorrow when I'm having Chinese papers. I wouldn't be able to concentrate at all. Grr.. >:@

I am starting to think positive about the idea of logging off at 11pm (: Although I don't get to talk to Deanna, Dorris, Sarah & the rest on EL but I get to concentrate better at school. I think that's more important than talking to them (sorry girls!). Fridays & Saturdays are the only two days when I get to talk to them I guess. Stupid time zones. :/



Watched Swimfan last night. Super scary. That girl, I forget what's her name, she kept screaming to Ben(the ex boyfriend), "No one will love you like I do! No one will love you like I do Ben, no one will! Tell her that you love me, I know you love me!" She is psychotic, seriously. She looks so horrid, I was scared omgggg. She tied Ben's girlfriend to this chair & she threw it into the pool. Ben dived in, tried to carry the chair up but he couldn't so he used some keys that he have with him to unlock the cuffs that that psychotic woman used to tie his girlfriend with to the heavy chair. Thank goodness he managed to unlock it. But that psychotic woman was like using some stick to hit the water (whatever for, I really don't know. She is crazy) They were like fighting & stuff, 'cos Ben wanted to get out of water but she kept using the stick to hit him so he went back in. Ben held onto the stick & pulled her down. She struggled, kept holding onto Ben so Ben would die with her but Ben managed to get away with his girlfriend. When Ben & his girlfriend got out of the pool, he did CPR on his girlfriend & his girlfriend woke up yaddayadda. They saw that psychotic woman drowned in the pool. Wah scary man! Hahaha.



Watched tv, texted J & went to sleep. I tossed & turned but I couldn't get to sleep. Woke up at 0444am (what a nice timing), tried to sleep again. The frikkin' clock in my room dropped & I got a shock of my life! Holy cow, scare me wtf. Hahaha finally woke up at 0941am 'cos I was thinking why is Nelly Furtado singing & my pillow is vibrating -.- Yifang called so I went to washed up. Did my stuff & all, went online, charged the camera, added more songs into my iPod. Left the house at around 1145am, took the train, called Michelle to talk for a bit. Met up with her at HarbourFront train station. Went to HarbourFront center to withdraw money, went down to Mac's to eat & study. Shu Hui came after awhile. Studied, talked, studied, talked, yaddayadda (: It was nice though the studying part weren't very productive. :/

At around 0330pm, we went to walk around. Damn sad okay, I bought nothing. :/ Oh well. Took a train down to Orchard 'cos I wanted to go Popular to get my guidebook but they don't have it there. So damn pissed, I swear ugh! Sorry okay, you two! ): Went to the loo & took a train back home. I almost slept in the train. Hahaha! Damn tired.

Vume is being an airhead. I can't sign in, neither can I get the codes for my videos. Damn annoying. Watching the 9pm channel 8 show now. Haha damn funny! Talking + on webcam with J now. She's hella funny, I can not stop laughing please.

I always wanted to put these thoughts into words but because of my bad command of the language, I can't seem to find the right words to say. Today, I finally did.

What if what's best for us is the hardest to do?

And suddenly it dawned upon me that when you've done something wrong, everyone remembers but when you've done something right, out of good will, no bad or cruel intentions, no one remembers. It's sad, isn't it?

):

When do I get to wake up next to yooohooooo! Hahaha I just felt like singing :D

Like my favourite record,
you're a little overplayed♥
Okay! Half an hour more ): I'll go blog in Xanga first! Heh got so much I wanna put up here but I can't cos.. I know some nosy people are reading. :P I'm gonna read a little of Chinese, text dearest J then off to sleep! All the best for MYE everyone, goodnight (: (: (:

P/s: Hello you, I think after the talk we had yesterday, things are gonna get better & we're gonna let things come naturally, like what we both said, let nature take its course right? (:

There's something about the look in your eyes,
something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me that I was alive
& it reminded me that you're so worth the fight.

Labels: gastric, mye, study, swimfan, vivo