Graceyeoh It's okay hons, respect your privacy (: Set up our own blog? We both share it or what?
Amanda Hello love. Yes, we haven't been talking much & I always see you lj user around in others' profile! Hahaha. Yeh I think you both know each other. Hahaha take care :)
Yf I am so tired luh wtf. Okay okay meet up soon :)
Don't let them tell you that there's a right way to fall in love.
Sometimes the hardest things to let go of; are the things we never really had.
I've never felt this pathetic before. Not in my seventeen years of living. So fucking pathetic. I could have walk out of the expressway & let a oncoming speeding car crash me. I would really like that to happen now so this overworked heart of mine can finally be at rest. I can never do anything to make myself feel better, make things any better. All I can ever do is cry, wipe the tears off my face & fake a smile to go.
And tears fall for the same reason & the same person all the time. My tear gland listens to her. She goes away, they start working; she comes back & they stop. Not only that, angels above pulls the string to bend my lips in a positive curve & that seemed as though she's the angel of the angels whom everyone is afraid of & would start working only when she is around.
Right up 'til now ever since things never went my way, I've been hoping, praying, wishing that things would get better anytime soon. Pert told me to never stop believing that they really are gonna get better because when I do, I am shoving the green light to the devil, asking if he could enter. The same fucking old line that I always repeat in my head, keep telling & asking myself. A better tomorrow, tear no more & things are gonna get better right, Glyn? :)
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Time check: 0101am.
Thank God for tomorrow's late paper. But I guess I'll still wake up early to read my Bio notes. I am really tired now. I wanted to sleep but couldn't awhile ago before I starting blogging in here but now I am so tired after the cry. Rahhhh. Watched After Hours & I love it. I want the song So Real by Linda Liao. Really love it :) Awesome song. I've got Keep Me Alive by Linda Liao! I want another song by her, Ye Xu. It's a Chinese song ): It sounds nice, I don't know what it means though.
I know you love♥
You've got me feelin' like a child now
Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tinglies in a silly place.
(:
Chemistry paper was a killer. I answered every question though. Some, I answered blindly, couldn't think of what to write so eh anyhow :/ Some I really know the answer. Some I know I have read it somewhere before the paper but I forget. Ugh. Went home after the paper, some fucked up shit happened & xx again. Walked to school around 12pm for Lit paper which I couldn't finish before 1408 ): I was rushing, trying to write fast & yet clear. That's definitely not an easy job eh. Mm section B, I only managed finished part one& one quarter of part two.
Went home after that. Everyone was home. Showered, sat by the com & did work. Printed notes, wrote a little. J came home & we finally got to talk. We talked, joked & stuff, on webcam 'til about 11plus & she turned in. She's can't do without sleep so yeh. And we're both idiots, seriously. We've got no plans after tomorrow's movie. Idk where to go! Rahhh shall just wait & see luh huh. Xav's comp is back, finally, after so long. Talked a little here & there. I was hella busy, like multimultitasking. Wtf is that word, I really don't know. Anyway, what I wanna say is that I'm glad Xav & I are on talking terms. At least she isn't MIA anymore (:
Xav & I - Conversation
Me I really hope someday she'll regret for whatever she have done :/
Her She will, someday she will. It sounds cliche but fact is, she has to fall down, and lose once, before she learns how to cherish.
True enough, y/n?
Her You should learn to be a little heartless.. Like me.
Me How to be heartless? Rip out my heart? Rofl.. okay sorry. :/
Okay that was just me being spastik :D Teehee!
Hey Xav♥, thanks :) For listening & being there.
And for frightening me by saying that she was right beside you then, mf -.-
Some guys are so sick. They add you in MSN, keep telling you gross stuff & they keep hitting on the webcam button. That fucking Mayhem guy. Gosh. And the recent one is an Indie. Rahhhh! I went straight to block & delete. There's one more, I can't remember his name. But whatever, goddamn annoying people should just go to hell.
Sorry about the emo/sad post. To make it up, how about a fucking lame comic? (:
It's quite retarded I know. Tsk :/
Meeting Jvern tomorrow after paper. I think I'll go home to change first. Maybe not. Depends on my mood. I'll ask mummy & see what she says. Watching horror movie, The Letters of Death? I don't know, I can't remember. After tomorrow, I'll be left with three more papers, Science practical, Maths P2 & Art (: Ha I haven't finish my Art research, how great! Okay I'll finish on Wednesday since there's no paper. And hooray! I'll be seeing April on Friday (: We're gonna hunt every Forever21 & Topshop outlet. Okay time check! 0201am, I took exactly an hour. Goodnight everyone! Good luck for your next few papers♥
P/s: Doesn't it excites you when you see me being so pathetic & helpless? I didn't know that's what you learn in church, y'know. It's okay hons. Yknow Karma? It'll bite you back.. *counts* probably twenty times (ten times more than other usual people because.. well, you're special?) harder on your ass for what you've done. Well wanna know why? Then, listen up. Because you fucking need to learn.
But did you know i was blind for you
Did you know you meant everything to me
and if I had one more change, this time
I would have meant the world to you
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