Yifang Hahahaha. Are you too shocked to say anything that you only typed three words?!
Joey Http://candypulp.livejournal.com! :D I bought it & I don't know if I'd use it or not. Hahaha. It's hand-made yeh.

Take the pain out of love & love won't exist.



It's not what you've been through, it's how you deal with what you've been through.

Happy seventeenth birthday, Happy Pill!♥
May all your wishes & dreams come true! I hope you enjoyed your day & I hope you went for the BBQ she has arranged for you :) I love youuu so much & I'm gonna steal you from your crazy fans :D Muah muah muah! Beach Road, call me! :D

P/s: I wrote this in myyour favourite colour! >)

Can I not tell you how school went today? It was fucked up. More fucked up than I ever thought it'd be. I never thought school would be like that after -. I'm heading to Xanga. If you're lucky, I'd let you in.

I want more songs, please. Anyone know of any nice songs, please introduce it to me okay :D

Oh by the way. Thank you Maine, for the phone call in the late afternoon while you were out (: I love you & thanks a lot for listening!

I've gotten a few photos from Amanda, she sent the album's link to me through mail before she left for camp. It's not all, a few. We camwhored a lot, hahaha :)








I lovelovelovelovelove her camera to the brim. Realise the photos aren't in that 640x480 size? Rah so nice & unique & pretty & lovely. Check out the last two photos. You know I still love you Xiaoyuann, though I bit your shoulders :D I hope they don't hurt anymore. :P

You are the words I fumble for.

There is more photos okay! I think Imagestation was really fucked up so Amanda only uploaded a few ): She didn't upload the one she took when Xiaoyuann was jumping around with her bag super high up! Hahaha.

It's so disappointing to know that people whom you thought would be there for you just weren't there when you needed them most. Even though things wouldn't change even if they were here, but at least you know you have them by your side. It's even more disappointing to know that the one you trusted the most, the one you loved the most, the one you know would lend you a helping hand when you're in need, weren't there after all. She must have her reasons, you thought. But seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months, you can't think of any reason that she can ever have for not being there, leaving you all alone when you're disheartened. Perhaps she wanted me to learn to be a little stronger, I should hold on & be a stronger girl, your inner voice goes. But a limit is a limit. When water fills the cup, if 250ml is the capacity of the cup, even if you keep pouring, the rest of it would overflow without a doubt. You decided to pluck up the courage to tell her, you barely started off, she didn't say much. You couldn't say anymore. The next time you see her, she gave this unfriendly look. When you went over to talk to her, she took a step back, smile that was on her face turned into a frown & gets annoyed with whatever you're saying. You wished she knew it hurts, so very badly. You wished you could freeze time, freeze everyone & break down.

You could remember how every other time you tried to ask her out, so you could talk to her privately, she'd just reject reject reject & tell you all sorts of tales. True or not, you don't know, you don't wanna judge. You could remember how you used to ask, without a doubt, people would always see two of you, laughing & giggling down the street together on a weekend. How devastating is that? You wished you could have the better times back. You wondered what was it that you've done to deserve this. You thought she said she'd accept the flawed you & love you the same. You cry every night & often pray silently to God before drifting into your sleep that things would get better soon, that you'd do anything to make it up.

You wonder, is it that people changes or is it because of something else that must have caused this to happen? You thought for it for hours but you can't seem to find out why. You wished you could do something to make yourself & the situation better. You wished you never had so much thoughts of running away. Was it right or was it wrong to even tell her about it? Times like this, you wished you never told her. A million bucket of tears would never make you feel better. A thousand other cheering-up days would never make you feel the same.

It's only during the bad times then you'd be reminded about how great the good times were.

Have ever been into such a pathetic plight? Tell me, tell me how to make you feel better.

I wish you knew this song was about you.
I wish you knew how painful that was.
I wish you knew why do I have to do this.
I wish you knew how much I want to tell you.
I wish you knew how much I miss myself with you.
I wish you knew, I wish you knew.


My eyes are swelling & puffy from all the cryings. I'm very tired as well. I haven't slept early any of the days in this week. I'm gonna finish up my maths homework & go to sleep early. No more phone calls, no more texting, nothing.

Actually, I feel like calling someone to cry it out. >:'(

Goodnight, off to Xanga.

You and me, we like to talk about that summer night,
You came over to my house and I sat there while you
Told me everything all of your ups& downs & in betweens.

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