A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets.

Awfully true, I like that line above.
In life, we've bade goodbye to more people than we can count. Some goodbyes are hurried & furtive- the sort that you say at night to a neighbor who got threatened by death & is leaving secretly at the break of dawn. Some goodbyes are emotional & long-drawn, to the relatives or friends who're leaving your side to pursue their dream, their goals in life or even to go on a search for the love of their lives & for some, they leave your side to go to another world where we'll never see them again. Most goodbyes are said casually- with a false smile plastered on the face & the words, 'See you soon!'.. Only to walk out of the door & want to collapse with the burden of parting with yet another loved one.
I was talking to Vilvian on MSN & she mentioned about her cousin who is 16 this year & recently, lost his girlfriend of 4 years to lung cancer. They were together ever since they were in P5, things were well & good until they had to part. He seemed allright to everyone else but when he was talking to Vilvian about his girlfriend, she could see the pain in his eyes. At the age of 16, I wonder how he handle the pain of separating with the one whom he spent (365 x 4) days together with. It's not gonna be easy but now he has moved on with life & he's gonna start attending school this week. Vilvian is so proud of him :) I'm so sorry about his girlfriend but glad that he's positive & willing to go on this life journey happily without her around.
Goodbyes make you think, they make you realize what you've had, what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted. But what is goodbye exactly about? Sometimes you've just got to learn to let go. Perhaps that is it. What say you? :)
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Very emo, I know.
Yesterday was super boring. I got there, sat around, read books that left on the table. Godpa was crying. I felt the pinch & I went to stand at the balcony. I was scared, too. Sticked around 'til Jon, Shufen, & Pam came, we watched teevee & ate dinner. Cousin came with his three kids. Omgosh the youngest one is so fucking cute. I can't find the camera & her photo is insideeeeeeeee okay I found it. Now Blogger doesn't wanna cooperate with me. Fuck it. Oh please ignore my face. I had a baaaaaaad hair day okay.
So cute la please. Got home around 7pm, went online 'til around 12am. Was talking to Prunella & April (: Watched teevee with Zel & slept at around 1am.
Day was well-spent at Aunt's place :) I wasn't feeling good, I had cramps but the company was perfect. Cousins were around to fill the place with laughters, unlike any other Sunday afternoons with only myself, Zel, Cherilyn & Jermaine. Minhui & Yonghan came over with their parents to get some stuff from Mom. They stayed until it was time for dinner.










From left to right: 1) Jermaine 2) Maine & me 3) Maine & Minhui 4) Me & Minhui 5) Maine & Yonghan 6) They three = We three when younger! 7) Maine & me 8) Myself & maine, negative 9)Maine & me 10) Yonghan & me
Had dinner & came home. Oh Maine was sick. She was vomiting but she looked okay, still playing & stuff. I asked her to dance for us but she didn't want. Weren't in the mood, I guess. Dad drove her, Aunt, Zel & Mom to the nearby clinic to consult a doctor. Haha she came home telling us all that the doctor instructed her to drink 100plus. Hahaha! That was to help her wash her stomach luh. She's down with a stomach flu. I used to think stomach flu means my stomach is sneezing :/ Retarded I know.
Let's rewrite an ending that fits.
Watching Ugly Betty now. School tmr, fuckkkkkkkk. There's Maths class test on trigo, sin/cos rule & bearings tmr. Art on Tuesday. Chem re-test & Chinese remedial on Wednesday. There's chalet on Friday & Saturday. I feel like dying. Omg Betty damn poor thing! K goodnight sexys. Off to watch my teevee & go on talking to Xav online (:
This emptiness is killing me but I haven't told anyone about it yet. Or rather, I can't find someone whom I'm comfortable with to tell to. Oh well.. ):
P/s: I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had.
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