I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.

If you cannot take profanities, scram. Right now, at this instance.

Have you ever hated someone so much that you felt like killing him/her? Have you ever felt like the hatred has reached its limit & you're about to burst in any moment? I just did. I wanted to murder her fucking badly. I'm going crazy. That fucking cunt won't shut the fuck up. I'm so fucking pissed. I am about to burst, really. I wanna cut her fucking tie off so she can't boss around like it's her territory everywhere. I wanna crash her birthday party so it wouldn't be a happy birthday party. I wanna kick her out of the house so I would stop seeing her, taking her nonsense, swallowing my pride each & every time she bring me down. I fucking wanna make everyone detest her, fucking hate her to the core so she would have no friends, no one would be on her side. I want her to fucking fail in life while I succeed my ass off. I fucking want her out of my life, right at this instance.

Partly, I blame myself. I asked for this eleven years ago when I was six & lonely. I'm sorry God, forgive me. I can't take it anymore. Limit is here so there, ranted & I hope I'd feel better from now on. I shan't be too bothered with her. Well, quoted Tammy, ignorance is bliss

I'm feeling super cold in the room right now. I just took my jacket out to wear. Watching with baby on the phone. Rainbow Connection is on now. School was alright today. Science in the morning. Sat with Jaclyn. Talked a lot & all. Did work & Miss Charles went through with us. Miss Rai came in later on & starting yakking :/ Recess, ate a little 'cos we were supposed to have remedial which got canceled in the end. After that, we had Maths. Maths = Love/Joy. We did the GCE O Level June paper. It was pretty easy though. I got 46/67 which is 69/100 If we did this paper during Os, omg I'd be so happy. Hahaha, that's a B4/B3 right! Oh my, I'd be happy, seriously. After school, we had some briefing on tomorrow's prayer service. It took about fifteen minutes & we're dismissed. Walked out of school with Chanel while baby accompanied me over the phone.

Got home, showered & all. Went to have lunch with mom. Talked & stuff. I love talking to mom. She's buying me my very much wanted camera!! I told her I wanna change my phone to K810i & I wanna get a PSP Slim. She just went on to ask how much & all. And that means she is considering :) Yay!


I like the color :)
That's W660i

Left: K810i/ Right: K800i
Baby's using K800i & I love it


Oh my, this is so gonna be mine.. someday :/

Went to Aunt's place for dinner. Zataime is so cute :) I got photos of her but it's not with me. I'll upload them another time. Nat & Zel was playing some games & it all seems pretty fun. I shall try it later. Bitched hell lot with MissGanRachael this afternoon! Haha I shall keep my mouth shut. Baby's friends saw the keychain she made for both of us & they all wanted an identical one. I told baby she could make money by doing all that, haha! But it's cheap stuff. Cardboard, plastic & marker. I thought we can find better materials & sell it online. And and and! Baby's Maths teacher, which is her mentor, mentioned that she put on weight :D Yay I'm so happy, haha! It makes me happy. I need her to grow & I need me to stop :/ Gahhh


Sigh, SS & English tomorrow. Super boring but I guess the day would be really short as we've prayer service & all. With the company of the lovelies, I hope the day would pass extremely fast. This afternoon, mummy got me tidbits & magazines. I shall go read a little, watch with baby & go to bad Goodnight lovelies, have a great Tuesday

Sunshine, come on back another day.
I promise you I'll be singing
This old world, she's gonna turn around.
Brand new bells'll be ringing.

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