Shuhui No last time have right? Remember that time when you, me & Yf went out tgr & we took photos at Somerset station? Using your phone & you have that face wrap thing. :/
Graceyeoh :)
Tiffany Hello, I use mainly Windows Movie Maker (: But I do not create videos, how do you know I know how to edit videos, may I know? :/
Cherilyn Haha thank you, that's really nice of you (: (: (: Okok nudge me nudge me!!
Hiii Deviantart (:
Rol Thank you rol. No problem, you're not online nowww :/
Prunella I miss Prunie too! :D -hugs back! I hope no bitch attacking you eh? :D

I built this fire, are you still mine?



It seems that people make promises just for the pleasure of breaking them.

Hello all, sorry for not updating. Been really busy at the wake, been coming home at wee hours, been unable to sleep well at night, been crying, been working all day with no rest at all. Tomorrow's Chinese Os & I'll go revise a little after these & I'm all set for a C5. No A1s, how can I get without practicing these few days? Oh well, C5 is good enough (:

I can't seem to remember whatever that happened during Friday & Saturday. I'll just list down whatever I can remember alright? I'm not at my best so, sorry guys.

(Friday, 250507)
Well, we didn't do much. We just sat around, helped out at the wake & I brought my work there to do & stuff. Merlene, Jon(who is known as Q² now, haha), Zel & I went to the mini mart nearby to get snacks to entertain ourselves. Dinner was great, with the company of the family :)

What I really hated to know was that, everyone was unhappy. Partly was the demise of the late Godpa, another was because they were quarreling. I don't know, I don't wanna mention it here.

We went home really early though. Because Zel was acting tired (haha) so we could all get home before 9pm to catch the Ch8 show :D Got home, showered, ordered Mac's. Some stuff happened between us but we're okay now (: Slept really late, like around 2plus. Mom & Dad only came home @ 7am the next morning, haha they went to play mah-jong with Merlz, Merlz's friend Joyce, Jon & Jimmy.

(Saturday, 260507)
Woke up early, lazed around at home & went down to the wake @ around 4pm. Had some prayer service all the way 'til 12am. We had breaks somewhere in between. Had dinner at the hawker nearby (: Thanks daddy! I was staving so Dad bought us to the hawker to have dinner first :D I was really tired at the end of the day. Drove Godma Irene + Merlene home & we went home too. Checked my mails, texted & read my book. Only managed to fall asleep at around 3am.

(Today, Sunday, 270507)
Woke up at around 11pm, showered & off to the wake. Had some prayer stuff & everyone started to tear & all. 'Twas really sad seeing a loved one go. Godpa's the 6th in the family to leave us all. But I thought we should all learn to let go. When time is up to meet your maker, we should let go. Shufen was telling Aunt Alice not to cry, or Godpa wouldn't feel good, he wouldn't go in peace. I thought that was true but I couldn't stop crying either.

At the crematorium, Aunt Doris & Aunt Alice was crying really hard, so was Keith. Alex & I were talking. She said they're gonna cry even harder later at the viewing mall, so I said, it's because it's their own blood brother, why wouldn't they right? She agreed. It really ache, it was really painful.. Especially at the viewing mall. I was standing the second level, I was so afraid. Dad & Zel were on my left while Shufen, on my right. When that woman(whom I didn't liked very much) was explaining the procedures & all, everyone was crying. Even Daddy, the one who seen me through my seventeen years of life, he cried so hard. I wanted to bad to hold his hand but Zel was crying too, in his embrace so I didn't. When the coffin goes nearer to the fire place(?), okay whatever you call that, Shufen heard some sorta scream & I think she thought it was me, she came over to hug me & all. Went back out to the exit, got our shoes back (FYI, we were in socks).

Went back to the wake & we cleared our stuff. Had dinner at the coffee shop & went home. Before I left, I went over to Godma, hugged her goodbye & told her to take great care of herself. When I looked into her eyes, they were swelling. She's been crying for nights, I could tell..

In the car, on our way home, Mom said that it's good that now Godpa is gone & now Godma (hopefully) will be a little better. I was wondering how is she gonna cope with the emptiness, the loneliness, the whole entire issue being-without-him. Single on a king-sized bed, that is loneliness..


And now, I cry every now & then whenever I think of him. It feels different without him around though I don't see him all the time. But I thought I should be glad that he isn't suffering anymore. I don't know, he is just isn't here anymore so.. I don't know.. My eyes really hurt from the endless cryings, gosh.

I've got stuff to show y'all but ugh the entry is far too long & I don't wanna lengthen it any further 'cos some people complained about my entries being too long? Okay whatever. Not in my best la huh.


I've gotten myself a new private lj (: I'll put up the url once I'm done with the layout, the friends-only thing & all. I'll go do up my lj & study my Chinese. Goodnight sweetie pies. Good luck to all taking Chinese Os tomorrow (:

Put on my coat in the pouring rain
Saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
It made me miss you oh so bad

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