Michelle Welcome my dear (:
Graceyeoh Haha they're observant, at least! They notice changes & things around your blog. Hahaha! Be glad okay. I so very totally agree with you lorsxzxz. That's why I said I'm gonna divert my attention onto something else that is worth my attention. (: Shan't get angry so often luh, will get freckles! I'm supposed to email you & I will okay so sorry babes! 16th 16th 16th!! We two, you ok? [: Love you so fucking much! Esp that dedication. You melteddd` m0ii hArttz~ Hahaha
Brenda I know! But does it works in IE? Mine doesn't yknow. I'm so angry argh!
A dream is a wish your heart makes.

I feel that I'm becoming more & more sensitive & it irritates me all the time. I have to think for me, for that person then think again if I'm right to get upset/angry over it. I've been spending so much time with myself recently & I guess, I spent most of my time thinking. About unnecessary stuff, about things that I shouldn't even be thinking about. It's fucking annoying me to the max, but I can't help it. I need to be less sensitive, really. Be a little more attentive in class than myself, my thoughts & my feelings. To hell with them. I'm tired of handling it.
And if you knew what I was thinking about, what has been occupying my mind, you'd think that I'm awfully pathetic & know how tiring it is to feel a mixture of emotions at the same time. I'm sick & tired, I need to care less.


I'm contemplating if I should dress up, take a train down to Boon Keng, & head down to Sally's place. 'Cos my oh-so-fucking-great parents left me alone at home, waking Zel early in the morning without me knowing(obvious duh) & happily went to their house first. Never mind about leaving me behind, I'm quite used to it. I like the idea as well. They just called less than an hour ago to say that they're on their way to her house now & I should get ready. I thought their next line was 'And I'll pick you up in 10' which haha! Wasn't, dream on kid. It turned out to be 'Take a train down & walk to her place yourself. Hurry up ah, everyone is there already.' Thank you folks, can't explain how much
How can you never see that your daughter is just an sensitive as you are & you should be a little more careful in whatever you say & do? How can you never see that your daughter tried to change herself for you? How can you never see that your daughter is going through a phase of life when she needs you the most? Have I not give in my best that's why you couldn't see? Or were you blinded by her for her position in school that you forget you have another useless child who can't do you just as proud as she has done you or even more? How can you never ever see..
Haven't I done good enough? Haven't I been better than she is? Haven't I tried my best to change myself into someone I didn't quite recognise to fit you? Have I not put in all my effort & my best into everything that I do, just to make you happy, to make you feel proud of me? Have I, or have I not done all that?..
Mummy I can't promise you that I can score As for you in my O levels like how Uncle's son got distinction in his A levels, you go'wha' I could see the envy in your eyes when Daddy told you about it but I promise you that I'd try, because I want you to feel proud of me.
And please, remember that you have a pair of hands & not one hand.
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My sensitivity destroyed the day. School was fun. I got 18/50 for my Chinese test ): Add up the previous test which was the first test we had, I got 43/100 for Chinese CT1. That's sad. 7 more marks to pass! Oh and you, I'm starting to dislike you. Do not, never ever irritate/annoy me, seriously. Jaclyn cried during recess because of one individual. Shan't mention. I have enough angst in me. Mrs Ong wrote the formulas for enlargement on the white board & she said 'Okay I'm done with this chapter!' & she started laughing while the class went 'EHHHHHH!' Haha. Guess what Sandra said? 'Haha rubbish.' at Mrs Ong! Mrs Ong, Tricia & gang went 'Orh hor!' & kept laughing. Super funny. Career fair was shit. Hella boring. Got a few brochures. I like Raffles Design Institutes'! Walked around for awhile, went down to Mac's & sat around there 'til 0315 & walked to the meeting point to meet the class. The bus came & we got to school at around 4plus. Went to get our Maths textbook & left. It was pouring & all I wanted to do was to sleep. I was being indecisive. I thought of calling daddy & ask if he have the time to fetch me but I don't wanna disturb him working so I decided to wait 'til the stupid bus come. Tsk, the fucking bus took half an hour to come. Got home at around 5pm. Guess what? Daddy was home, happily eating. Why the fuck did I think so much about disturbing him & yet he is at home?! I didn't say a thing, dashed into the room & slept. I hate doing that, lie on my bed in uniform, smelly & dirty but I can barely open my eyes, I just needed to rest for awhile.
Showered, dressed up & went for dinner with the rest of the family + Aunt's friends. Got home around 11plus, showered & went online 'til around 12. Slept after that.
Friday was wasted like that. How great. Nothing to TGIF about, actually. It's already Saturday, 0330pm, & Sunday would be here in less than 12 hours' time. Eight & a half hours' time to be exact. And after that, in 24 hours' time, it'd be Monday. Another 7 hours' time, I'd be in school. Time flies faster than the planes, I feel, sometimes. At times when I want time to go faster, it's so damn slow.
My love is right there, but you don't feel it.
I'm gonna get dressed up & go off to her place. Argh I wish I have enough money to cab there hahaha :/ But unfortunately not. Tsk. I'll post the photos when I'm done uploading them into the laptop. Have a great weekend ahead girls :)
You over think things
You say what if we're not meant to be?
Well you know what? So what?
Make a mistake with me.
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